I am scared of my future too. I only have my parents and they help me out so much I dont know what I will do without them. I pray every night I will die in my sleep before they die because I dont believe in suicide. My life has been full of pain from a young teen up until recently. I am now 39 and still live with mom and dad. I have finally gotten up the courage to go back to college. If I can finish the degree I want and get a job that I can handle that is low stress then I will feel a little safer. But really, I am very scared like you. I hope you find your way in life. That goes for the both of us.

I've discovered that I can't even work because of my condition. I can't handle being in college either. I've tried doing both and it never works out.

Plywood> I also live with my parents. I had to move back in with them after my divorce. But I tried living on my own since then and I couldn't handle it. So I am stuck living at home with them.

I have never been able to work for more than a couple months without having a breakdown. And the same with college. I am just hoping and praying that this time around I will succeed. I honestly do not believe I will but I want to try. If I fail I will go back on disibility. I also have tried living alone....didn't work out. So I really understand your situation.

Plywood> I've tried working and it usually only lasts a couple months too. It never works for me. I am in the middle of reapplying for disability with a lawyer. So, I am really hoping it will work this time.

As a parent I worry about who will take care of him if something happens to me. He's only 19 and has never moved out but when he's feeling well he's talked about it and that scares me to death. I would give anything to take this from him like I'm sure your parents would as well.