Schizophrenia Support Group
Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.
Feeling much better, more balanced after I started to distract myself with something else like watching a good baseball game or something more purposeful like clipping the dead roses and other flowers, so they can regenerate throughout the season. My Pit Bull/Boxer and Boxer are so intuitive and a great comfort to be around, well actually during my down times theyre surrounding me, where ever I may be sitting. If I lay down during the day my Pit licks my face and then lies down next to me. I intentionally picked those breeds in part for their family-oriented behavior and a need for attention from others. And anyone whos owned a dog before knows how they greet you at the door, like youve been gone forever. Happy tails, jumping around, waiting to get rubbed and then a dog cookie; that can really change your mood or at least bring a bright spot to an otherwise difficult day. I owe A LOT of my success in recovering from that abusive marriage that ended over 2 yr ago. The cost of keeping them fed with high quality all natural food ($110/month) and around $700 budgeted for vet bills a year is more than worth it. Cheap therapy and on call no less! :- )
DS has been an integral part of my healing, getting feedback and sometimes just someone to unload on, which we all need now and then. A quiet listener who has maybe already been there in your place or is presently. All it takes is the light from one human spiritual being to clear out the immediate darkness, to show a light of hope and peace, instead of despair, desperation and conflict through our insights, support and sharing with one another!
The total irony of it though is that it was my ex who first introduced me to DS, so at least one positive thing came out of it, given this first aid kit of sorts to get my head back together and mend my heart; reenergize my Spirit/soul.
One last thingthe alternate psychiatrist at the VA eliminated taking the Seroquel 25 mg during the day, unless I need it for my nerves and anxiety, because it is contradicting the Wellbrutrin I take twice a day for depression. One lowers my dopamine level and the other increases it, because he said in combination with my other meds before bedtime I should NOT be having these horrific nightmares nightly. All that Seroquel should be taking care of that, so gradually adding on by 20 and 25mg over time, I just started last Friday.
Having dreams where you are about to die by some painful event, like being on a roller coaster thats headed towards a collapsed set of tracks ahead and you can see it coming at some point. These night issues are also associated with the Wellbrutrin and while my daughter took it as a quit smoking aid, she talked to me about it, as shes aware of my condition and the meds I take. She too experienced the same type of terrifying dreams, of getting killed by someone, getting into a car wreck, etc, so if this latest treatment dont work, will try alternate new depressants that have come out.
The depression is my main concern, as I can live with the other craziness in my mind, that comes and goes, I can differentiate whats real and whats not and know how to deal with it cognitively and otherwise; but the deep dark hole can last for days, weeks and months if its not managed. Its like a jail of darkness.
Background Info: Last Thursday a bipolar man who was not on his medication, killed 7 people, including his wife, daughter, ex g/fs and another family of three, including a daughter who was friends with my daughters daughter whom I know. Then it just became known at 7 pm, that the killer who also shot at other victims in cars and police and just walking by in the middle of the city, was thought to be back in the area where the second set of murders occurred. He was but the police lost him after he ran into a ditch and later broke into another house, held three hostages and then called 911; but after my yoga class in the neighborhood where this was going on, no one had this information. He was potentially still out there and we took the back roads, as it was already known he was on two major expressways previously one of which next to the church where we had yoga class, in its basement, was shut down.
Prior to that, in the morning I had to reopen old wounds catching up an alternative VA psychiatrist in order to get my meds renewed and I didnt handle it well afterwards. Too much to handle in one day; Im going to crash, Im not freaking invincibleI read that a Wikapedia site has been started under Grand Rapids MI massacre, if anyone wants to know details.
Peace Baby!
DS has been an integral part of my healing, getting feedback and sometimes just someone to unload on, which we all need now and then. A quiet listener who has maybe already been there in your place or is presently. All it takes is the light from one human spiritual being to clear out the immediate darkness, to show a light of hope and peace, instead of despair, desperation and conflict through our insights, support and sharing with one another!
The total irony of it though is that it was my ex who first introduced me to DS, so at least one positive thing came out of it, given this first aid kit of sorts to get my head back together and mend my heart; reenergize my Spirit/soul.
One last thingthe alternate psychiatrist at the VA eliminated taking the Seroquel 25 mg during the day, unless I need it for my nerves and anxiety, because it is contradicting the Wellbrutrin I take twice a day for depression. One lowers my dopamine level and the other increases it, because he said in combination with my other meds before bedtime I should NOT be having these horrific nightmares nightly. All that Seroquel should be taking care of that, so gradually adding on by 20 and 25mg over time, I just started last Friday.
Having dreams where you are about to die by some painful event, like being on a roller coaster thats headed towards a collapsed set of tracks ahead and you can see it coming at some point. These night issues are also associated with the Wellbrutrin and while my daughter took it as a quit smoking aid, she talked to me about it, as shes aware of my condition and the meds I take. She too experienced the same type of terrifying dreams, of getting killed by someone, getting into a car wreck, etc, so if this latest treatment dont work, will try alternate new depressants that have come out.
The depression is my main concern, as I can live with the other craziness in my mind, that comes and goes, I can differentiate whats real and whats not and know how to deal with it cognitively and otherwise; but the deep dark hole can last for days, weeks and months if its not managed. Its like a jail of darkness.
Background Info: Last Thursday a bipolar man who was not on his medication, killed 7 people, including his wife, daughter, ex g/fs and another family of three, including a daughter who was friends with my daughters daughter whom I know. Then it just became known at 7 pm, that the killer who also shot at other victims in cars and police and just walking by in the middle of the city, was thought to be back in the area where the second set of murders occurred. He was but the police lost him after he ran into a ditch and later broke into another house, held three hostages and then called 911; but after my yoga class in the neighborhood where this was going on, no one had this information. He was potentially still out there and we took the back roads, as it was already known he was on two major expressways previously one of which next to the church where we had yoga class, in its basement, was shut down.
Prior to that, in the morning I had to reopen old wounds catching up an alternative VA psychiatrist in order to get my meds renewed and I didnt handle it well afterwards. Too much to handle in one day; Im going to crash, Im not freaking invincibleI read that a Wikapedia site has been started under Grand Rapids MI massacre, if anyone wants to know details.
Peace Baby!
That is very sad and scary about the bipolar man who killed so many people. But we must remember that that is not the norm for the mentally ill. Most of us are gentler than the "normal" population. I just hate hearing stories about mentally ill people going bezerk on the news and hurting people. It gives us all a bad rap in an already uneducated society.
I just thought I'd share that it that was something you were interested in. :) Just a thought! PIt Bulls are sweet, affectionate and lovable dogs :D
In my experiences with them and my own, we as a group tend be socially adverse, as in getting out of the safety of our home and being around strangers or crowds, in part because we dont know if some trigger is going to occur, which at best can be embarrassing, frustrating and out of character and I for one dont want anyone else to meet me like that.
Too much stimuli can do it and theres odd vocal changes along with a jumbled mind that just wont connect the right words and syntax correctly and the result as my shrink puts it is brain salad.
The statistics say that schizophrenia affects 1% of the population and a rare few are also violent. Its also been determined that only 1% of the population have the potential to be violent criminals, so its a long-shot that any one individual suffering from the disease will act out their aggressions on others. These facts should be a footnote with every sensational tragedy written!
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With the recent massacre of so many women and children, that I talked about in other posts, I decided to help support the YWCA Domestic Crisis Center, as I suspect there are going to be a lot of women NOW seeking help and guidance, BEFORE things turn uglythe Internet is such a marvelous tool to find the best prices and quality, whether its a gift or in this case wholesale prices when buying in bulk, which today Ill be ordering a dozen twin sheet/pillowcases, pillow covers and 3-dozen high quality washcloths. The cost is more than I give away in a year, but they need it more than me and my financial situation is back in balance, after I got hit with my car insurance, FEMA flood insurance and $300 vet bill, that all came due the same period.