am feeling really weird right now..I have just read my post from a few days ago and what I went on with and dont know how I got to that stage....am kind of feeling worn out and numb....not good or bad, just numb...no feeling at all.....just a body walking around doing what I gotta do....I dont like this...psychotic one day then back down to earth the next...dont know how to explain it to my pdoc....maybe how I have explained it here....
also in my psychotic state I burnt my hand badly and it is blistered and looking like its getting infected already...hope not cause I dont want to have to explain that to my pdoc....
My head just feels so empty right now...not used to it at all..
anyway Im sorry that I frustrate people...guess its about all Im good at doing....I dont want to die now...how stupid to think a couple of days ago I came so close...I really need to get me some help before it happens again...now thats going to be hard.