Thinking it's not real is crap. I lived through it (quite a bit of what's listed above and oh so much more). Wish I hadn't. Hard to get help because people don't want to believe it can happen, let alone in their own back yard and by "upstanding" citizens of the community (i.e. in my case there was an M.D. after most of their names and they would never willfully hurt anybody).

I'm afraid to bring it up during therapy because I will be judged; but I don't think I'll be able to heal in the least bit unless I share my true experiences in their full detail. Not "oh, I was raped and burnt/cut" etc.....

we feel the same, our whole lives have been destroyed because noone will believe us, because people who are u[standing members of the community are the worst of them all. they kill. my children, our lives have been destroyed, not a day goes by when i dont think of the other victims that werent so lucky as to get away..you have to question how anyone or anything could do this. theyre has to be a god and a devil because ONLY the devil could do this. i have heard things from my children that i will take to my grave. bbut believe it or not it has only strengthened my belief in god. cause with pure evil there must be pure good. they are still trying to shut me up but i wont. i can't. that would be like abusing and denying my kids all over again and the system has done a good enough job of doing that to them already. what has to happen for people to know this is going on!! i mean its blatently there in everyones faces and they dont want to listen. please believe we believe you.

hi, i believe you too. i have friends who have been going through the same thing and it is horrible. they have not been believed, they have been ostracised. even myself with my story the same thing has happened although i dont remember enough to know if its satanic yet, i have a serious feeling it is. i have always remembered the abuse just not all of it. and the more that comes back the more i freak out that its more sinister than i though. i know they would have been doctors, that is what they do both so they can look legitimate and 'look after' victims after their own crimes so they dont get caught. eg, birthing a rape baby and making it dissapear would be harder for a layman than a doctor. not to say they wouldnt do it without a medical liscnence. i am SICK TO DEATH of people saying that this is all lies. i am going to finish my psych registration and start publishing some TRUTH. its going to take me five to ten years but its GOT TO BE DONE. i am SICK TO DEATH of reading accounts like this and then at the end it just says but its not true. you must be completely over it. have you been able to tell anyone anything about the ritualistic side of things? or have you always felt noone will believe you?

Doesn't necessarily have to be satanic to be ritualistic. There are a number of "cells" out there that mimic satanic abuse because somehow in their sick, twisted minds, they are better, more powerful than satan. They're everywhere and everyone looks the other way.

I agree that there doesnt necessaraly have to be satanism involved. I didnt mean to imply that it couldnt happen without it!

It's so much deeper than just not believing. Usually you are set up and your reputation slandered before you even realize what's happening. At least this was the case with me. If they even think you may figure out what is happening you will be lied about ,falsely accused of things you would never dream of doing ,shunned with no clue why ,isolated, from Dr,s to sheriffs detectives if anyone fights for you they become a target. Out of fear a lot of people just say they don't believe. So again your isolated they go behind your back to those who support you and in whatever way possible destroy your relationship. It's the o I'm worried about her mental state when nothing is wrong or she has a drug problem she needs prayer when you have never had one . It's all a mind game all under your nose yet you don't realize till it's to late and sometimes by the one most trusted for me my husband at the time .

By far the best one of all is she thinks Satan worships are gonna get her she's a diagnosed Schizophrenic when that's absurd and completely far fetched . O but wait till you start seeking help from the ones close that have been poisoned with this garbage they think he is right rather than logic to analyze the situation . People I've know for years who knew I was not nuts just literally dropped out of my life people I went to church with it was like they were scared I'd give them leprosy! Either way I say we get together support each other and write a book .

It is interesting that you are quoting from THAT passage. When I first read the first sentence of the quoted article years ago, I started to tremble and pant. I am almost positive that is EXACTLY what happened to me when I was a teenager. (infant sacrifice) If it wasn't real, how could reading a single sentence have caused such an intense physical reaction?

I KNOW this is real. It has been five years since I read about ritual abuse and realized my family has been lying to me my entire life. Whenever I asked about it they would smack me in the face and tell me I imagined it because I'm an ungrateful little brat with a dirty mind and that good people NEVER even imagine such horrible things. Is that what your families did to you too?

To this day they continue to close ranks against me and won't admit it is real but a secret. I've learned that they trained me to go into an amnesiac trance whenever they say some sort of code phrase to me. (I can't remember the phrase but am gaining the ability to become aware that they have used it on me afterwards.) Have you guys experienced that? It is mostly just doctors who use it before raping me but at least some other cult members also know the phrase besides just doctors. (I finally started seeing a chiropractor instead of a doctor, but I know the other chiropractor in my town is also one of those cult abusers, so I don't know what to recommend for safe medical care.) Have you guys experienced this too? Are there any type of doctors which tend to be safe to visit or are all types of health care infiltrated? I know I've run into cult abusers at both medical clinics in my town.