Rheumatoid Arthritis Support Group
Rheumatoid arthritis is a chronic, inflammatory, multisystem, autoimmune disorder. It is a disabling and painful condition which can lead to substantial loss of mobility due to pain and joint destruction. The disease is also systemic in that it often also affects many extra-articular tissues throughout the body including the skin, blood vessels, heart, lungs, and...
Then, just recently, I told my boss and personnel office that I am planning on having surgery for my finger (boutonniere deformity). When they asked about it, I showed them my finger and they both actually gasped! (I'm thinking to myself, if they only knew!) If they could somehow see a physical representation of the cumulative misery this demon has caused me for the last 45 years, they would have fallen on the floor.
For the most part, people don't see what we are going through, so it is somehow simply "not there" or not real. And as the article states, this "invisible pain" haunts a lot more people than just those of us with RA.
I have often dealt with guilt - when I have a good day and can get some things done around the house or yard - I feel a tremendous amount of guilt thinking that I should be at work - or that maybe I'm just a hypochondriac and making too much of my conditions - I have been off work for the past two months - the longest that I have ever been off work - so I am running through sick leave hours that I have accumulated over the years -
I think that the hardest part is that the only time that I go out is when I'm having a good day - so people only see that side of me - not the days when I'm at home walking around like Frankenstein struggling to get upstairs or straining to open things - lol -
Great article - thank you for posting it