I don't even know what to say. Do you feel like your fighting a loosing battle. I keep trying to fix the Broken pieces but it just doesn't seem to work. I found I can't have the module in my throat removed becuz apparently it plays hide and seek. When I have a voice it's gone when I don't have a voice it's there about three weeks out of every month it takes up residence on my voicebox then goes away but the dr said even if they took it off while it's visiting me it prob would not work and likely come back needless to say EXTREME frustration with that one. Found out I have three buldging disks in my back two thiracic one lumbar already had lumbar fusion and thorazic discectomy but here we go again!! Have to start with epidurals on wed. Hope it works for a while but I have a history of steroid flares so not looking forward to that. My right knee replacement is being a BRAT but I guess it's my fault for jfalling out of the truck 6 weeks post surgery, still need the other one done but am scared to death. I take orencia infisions and dr asks how are you doing I say better than nothing at all but not good and he examined me and says boy I'd hate to see you if you weren't on it !! But encouraged me to use it as long as I can as I have already nearly run out of options due to allergic reactions or failure to work. So. To make long story longer I'm depressed frustrated and Angry. I don't want to be sick anymore and don't know if I should even keep trying to be well. I'm tired. Ever just want to give up on all the meds and treatments and just let RA claim you? Of course that's not an option one day without and I'd be balled up on the couch. I'm just ranting again never mind me all will be well tomorw is another day!!'