ever get to the point when infidelity no longer interests you ?
over the 2 plus years since dday, there have been times when I have walked away from the forums or the books on infidelity. those times, I did , mainly, for peace of mind. I needed a break at those times.
thru out those years, for the most part, id always check in a few times a day to SG and other sites. even when I had nothing to say, or nothing to contribute....checking the infidelity forums has been part of my daily routine.
I used to come to those for support..or for rage..or to vent...or to cry...or to scream....or to know others have encountered a similar ordeal. it helped me not feel as alone and isolated
lately, I find myself growing weary of reading books, articles, stories, posts, forums...etc. its not that I don't care anymore. I do care. its not that I don't want to remember. I'll always remember. its not that I don't empathize w others on their journey , because I do....
its just that , I'm finding it less and less important for me to spend any amount of time during my day thinking about infidelity.
I'm much for focused on what is happening NOW in my life. focused on how I am healing....how I am healthy., how my wife is healing and healthy....how we have changed from the people we were before the infidelity, changed from the people we were during the infidelity, changed from the people we were after dday...
I read post from folks and think , "wow... I remember that I felt like that...but I don't remember how I really felt....all I remember is that I was broken..shattered into a million zillion pieces.
I read some stories and I think., "oly sh1t that is heart breaking to read" . others I read and think "damn, you are one strong person"
I read posts about reconciliation , and I some are positive and others negative, and others neutral.
I read them, I emphasize, I relate... but I don't FEEL the same as I did when I first came here or to other forums. its almost matter-of-fact somedays when I read stories.
I wonder if that is a good sign or a bad sign?
for me, it feels good...it feels like I am truly continuing to move onward and upward and away from the past.
I wonder if others have experienced this shift in perception?