I am having a difficult time. There is a girl that my H has been working with quite a bit lately. They are both songwriters. My H is doing well in his career and this is a 19 yr old girl that he's been inviting to a bunch of his writing sessions. He knows I am extremely uncomfortable with their relationship. He swears to me that I am freaking out, but he has also stated that he could have her if he wanted to. I knew he was working with her yesterday (only because I asked him.....he will not just tell me). I was uncomfortable to begin with. Then he would not answer my phone calls last night.....he kept texting me back saying to give him a sec.....he would be home soon, etc. He never called me, and he did not get home until 5am. On top of it he was drinking....he says he did not drink with her there, but I just don't believe him. He has pictures on his phone of her from last night wearing devil horns and making a "cute" face. All of this combined is just making me sick. I tried to talk to him about my concerns this morning, and he just pushes them aside and says he thought we were moving forward and just going to trust eachother. I am doing my best to trust him, but I have some concerns. It is difficult for me just to let this go. My gut is telling me something is off here. (he was there with at least one other guy as well - I could see that in the pics)

This is a girl who we met this past summer on one of his business trips. H was sending "encouraging" texts to her and at the time telling me she was like 12 years old and fat.....I was crazy. She was also the girl in that he had taken a video of dancing w another girl when they were all drunk. In the video he was telling them how hot they were and to get closer while they were dancing. I also encountered this girl in his studio and she did not even acknowledge my presence. I said hello and introduced myself as his wife. She just said "oh yeah, I think I met you in hawaii" in a very non-welcoming tone and then she just walked out of the room. I was left feeling as though all of my instincts were right.

I am getting very frustrated with how much H is just pushing my concerns to the side and saying it is his work and I need to stay out of it. This is EXACTLY what happened with the A. I could never ask about the OW or what he was doing at work because it was non of my business. I feel like I have been extremely patient, but I am left feeling extremely frustrated. Having a hard time knowing whether or not I should just bury these feelings and suck it up. In the past this is what I would have done just to move forward. I am having a very difficult time ignoring my intuition tho.

Should I just let this go? It is creating such tension between us everytime I bring it up......when I ignore it we have been doing really well. He's been leaving me sweet notes, we went to vegas together this past weekend, he took me shopping. He is going to therapy and seems to really be making an effort to work things out. I just can't tell if I am being paranoid and completely over analyzing things. This is sooooo frustrating. I just want to move forward with my life, but this stupid A just keeps haunting me. Have any of you seen Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind......I wish I could just erase certain things in my memory and never have to think about or worry about them again.