I have to get a physical soonish.....I've avoided it for so long! I am really starting to stress out about it. The more I think about going to the doctor, the more anxious I get. Over the summer, I have to go and have them sign a paper saying I can continue getting counseling. I apparently have an eating disorder. I've had it for a while. Because of binging, I gained weight some years ago, and now I'm back to restricting. I'm careful about it, but since it's been going on for a long time, I have to get a physical so the school wont be liable. Our counselors are interns and so the guy that they report to can have his license taken if anything happens, which is why I have to get a physical, basically.

It sucks. I know it's good and will help.....but the thought of a physical stresses me out.......what if it brings up unwanted emotions and stuff...I'll probably end up getting all depressed and stuff afterwards. Plus, this is just one more thing I have no control over, and I hate it. I hate having no say so and being made to do things I don't want to :( The more I think about it, the more I hate it, and the more I don't want it, and the more stressed I feel.