I am so sorry you had to go through this. I hate to tell you this, but you will never forget, you will never get over it. You will however learn to live with it, and you will learn to move on.
Struggling is normal, don't beat yourself up, tell those "friends" that tell you get over it, to go to hell.
Trying to be strong, is good, it's the only way you are going to win this battle, but also give yourself time to grieve. Either get alone, or preferably with a friend that is compassionate about it, and cry your eyes out, you will feel better.
Every step of the process is a battle, your life is the war. You can lose a battle or two, and still win the war, but if you give up, you will lose the war. Being strong when you can, winning the battles you can, will take away the power your attacker has over you, and will give it to you. Losing a battle let him keep his power. If you lose a battle, go back and try again, until you win. You might need to take a break between battles, that is ok, we all need to rest every now and then. Here are the 5 steps of greiving, that you will go through, learn them, recognize them in your life, and accept them.
Denial and Isolation
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance
If you want to read more about these 5 steps here is a link to check out
http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-5-stages-of-loss-and-grief

Every one here is willing to help you as much as we can, just keep writing to us, and we can talk you through all those steps, and get you to a place where you are comfortable with yourself again.

I guess I was lucky. I have memory lapse of from the time he held me down and till it was done. I don't' remember. It's your minds way of trying to work thru what happened. the flashbacks and memories. I think both are normal reactions though. Mine happened about 20 years ago.

Thank you. The five steps of grieving is making sense.

I feel that it's possible for any survivor to learn how to live life without being held down by the events of our past, but as far as forgetting, I'm sorry to say, that wont ever happen. Even if we manage to completely let go of what happened to us and not think about it ever again, unfortunately, that chapter of our life's story will still remain.................I do believe, as I said, it's possible to live a good and healthy life, and I hope you are able to reach that point one day :) I think a good therapist is a good start to getting better :)
Hope my opinion helps you somehow. Good luck :)