i've often felt like I must have a bulls eye on my back saying -violate me . but No it's just our trusting natures that gets us in hot water. It's not our fault it's the creeps and perverts of this world that take advantage of trusting people

Have you ever heard of Re-victimization? it's common to have numerous assaults/abuse etc and it isn't your fault. I've experienced this enough to tell you it is real. Google it.

Yes I feel the same way. Like something stands out about me that creeps pick up on. And they know that I'm easy. It's called revictimization or something like that.

I'm similarly afflicted. I could have easily been the next since I was downtown for breakfast and right around the corner. Lucky this day, I was very aware of my surroundings and carrying a screwdriver for a good, legal weapon.
http://www.actionnewsnow.com/news/woman-escapes-after-being-kidnapped-two-suspects-whereabouts-still-unknown-/

I used to feel like a target.

Um...well, I had a lot of repressed rage? Not exactly so repressed anymore.
Rage, correctly channeled to the right people in the right way? Is good. It says " I'm going to fight you with all I've got."

...sometimes freezing IS the right thing to do though.
The goal is survival.

We on this page survived.
We got it right.
The thing is, to learn how not to KEEP being a target.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/200901/marked-mayhem

I felt the same way when I was younger (and still do fell this way). It was the only thing that made sense to me. I always thought that my rapists were like: "Oh look, it's a little boy and i know he just wants to be raped. Let me kidnap him, put a gun to his head, and sexual abuse him. What is he gonna do? Fight back? He's to little and probably won't even remember this!"
Like I said before, I still fell this way because I'm still being abused (I'm 20) and it only makes me feel like I must be a target. Why would this keep happening?
So even though I might not be a survivor "per se", I do however know how you feel.

-Mac