Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I was raped on June 6th 2017 by my friend I helped when he was locked out his house in the rain (more details are in another post)
anyway since it's happened I just want to die, I feel suicidal I hate everything about myself I don't want to be me anymore which breaks me.
I've gone overboard on make up and fake tan etc trying to change the way, i look in the only way i can afford as a single mother but it doesn't work, i hate myself so much.
Everyday i think about the rape everyday i want to die, i just want to forget i don't want to remember it anymore, i hate myself, i love my baby with all my heart and would never kill myself as i can't bear to leave him but i feel like sexually I've regressed to that of a child i blush when people say dirty words, i get embarrassed when i see sex scenes on tv and feel extremely uncomfortable about it,i feel dirty when i check everything's normal internally and i feel like a prude, i hate myself i dress so slutty all the time as it makes me feel anything but the casual tomboyish person i used to be, yet i hate myself whenever anyone comments on my clothes i feel a jolt of fear go through me.
i hate feeling this way i just want to forget why wont God let me forget, why did God let him rape me?
why me? Why me?
does it ever get any easier? Will I ever be normal again? I am so scared of being raped again by people. Why me? What did I do to deserve this?
I hate myself but I love my son too much to leave him without his mummy. I hate feeling this way, I'll never act on my thoughts but it doesn't change the way I feel I just want to be someone else, I want to be the mother and woman I was before I got raped.
