Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
Last night my kids had me watch a movie, I agreed not knowing what it was about. It was absolutely horrible! It was a very very graphic gang rape and revenge movie. Well this scene lasted a long time and it trigged me so bad that I was frozen in my seat, I could not move. I have been struggling all day to stay focused and in the present, but continuously flashback to my rapes. Shame, guilt, how stupid am I to watch that! I don't know why I couldn't move to leave. Oh, why can't I unsee what I saw and why can't I unlive what happened to me!
Please forgive my popping in... But I read your measage about watching a trigger movie with your kids, I do not, of course, know your children's ages or your relationship with them. And I know it is not the same, but I have a thing about fake blood in horror movies or gory loud horror movie, news, etc.
I will go OFF! Jump up, stand in front of tv, or just grab the d4m^ remote and flick it myself. I just get weary of the garbage.
Maybe they thought flooding you with that movie would help you get over it? Maybe you thought it would help you bond with them by watching. NOT! Both case scenarios would induce trauma, psychological, emotional scarring.
That is why all these computer games are so detrimental, they quash natural creativity and increase impulsivity and need for immediate gratification.
We are biological beings, yes, but also spiritual. We need to learn how to nurture, protect our inner self. Being careful what we see, hear, say, or do... In other words to guard our hearts and minds for through them are the issues of our lives.
Peace & Healing,
~K9Dame