December 2013 was when it happened. it was in my own bed in my own home with... well i guess he was an acquaintance i thought i knew him better than i did. He was drunk and was sleeping on my sofa that night or meant to be, came in my room and forced me into it. that is the long and short. there are a lot of complications around things that were said and done prior to the incident so basically the Officer that dealt with me told me it sounded like a story, basically saying she did not believe me. she told me to come in to do my statement on a recording even though i had done a written one. when on camera she was lovely, otherwise she was so stern. how she said everything she made out that it was my fault, he claimed i never said no and due to our 'previous sexual liaisons in the week' they would not use the evidence. so everything was dropped. she told me victim support and twelve's company would be in touch ASAP but, to this day over a year later, i heard nothing. another incident occurred in April when Victim support did contact me for it they told me they had not heard about my rape and they found out from Twelve's that they were not told either. what makes it worse is that she came in with her side man, into my place of work during lunch rush when I had the busiest job to tell me, spent less than 5 minutes saying, in short, charges were dropped but we cannot tell you were he is. so basically since then I have been looking over my shoulder, having flash backs, struggling with all care and attention towards men. I cannot report her because the evidence from what the the bloke that was with her would be trying to protect her considering all he said to me was 'did you actually say no at any point' and the evidence on the tapes, it would never get any further and if she claimed my case was a false accusation they would have me pinned as a sh** stirrer. I am so tired of not sleeping or being able to go out alone it is sickening and i have had no professional help at all for it. I am totally blaming myself for it because of what the police pointed out and it sickens me to my stomach. I felt so rejected and insulted