Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I am a survivor to rape and i wanted to share my whole story. I hope some can give me advice. I am wondering if anyone has gone through what I have.
I was raped at 6, gang raped at 15, and when i turned 21 my husband raped me.
When I was 6 a guy 10 years difference raped me repeatedly through that whole year. He threatened me with a knife and stabbed me to show he wasn't joking. I didn't tell anyone until i turned 12 and the person i told told 3 different people all my superiors. They turned to me and said i was a liar.
When I turned 15 I was being followed by two guys so to lose them i went down an alley. right as i came to the other side of the alley 3 guys appeared in front of me and i stopped. They walked over and asked what i was doing. I didn't know i was in trouble until two of them reached and grabbed my arms and dragged me from my bike. the two men who had been following me caught up and joined in repeatedly raping me and sodomizing me. They tied my wrists up with barb wire. they held a knife to my throat. I only escaped when all but one left and the one that was left fell asleep while laying on top of me. I never told anyone this until 2 years ago. I didn't bother telling my family since they didn't believe me about what happened when i was 6.
On my 21st birthday my husband got me really drunk and after drinking all i wanted to do was sleep. Instead he took my clothes off and started inserting himself into me. I kept saying no i don't want to. I managed to push him off a few times but finally i just gave up.
Flashbacks have recently gotten really worse and all i can do to keep it together is talk to my 3 years old daughter about her day. At work I have anxiety attacks often. at night i cant sleep when I do sleep i have night terrors.
I have recently started counseling and I pray that it brings some closer. Is there any advice you can give me with how to cope?
I have done the really stupid things like self harming.
No one believes me accept maybe 3 people and none of those 3 are my family.
I was raped at 6, gang raped at 15, and when i turned 21 my husband raped me.
When I was 6 a guy 10 years difference raped me repeatedly through that whole year. He threatened me with a knife and stabbed me to show he wasn't joking. I didn't tell anyone until i turned 12 and the person i told told 3 different people all my superiors. They turned to me and said i was a liar.
When I turned 15 I was being followed by two guys so to lose them i went down an alley. right as i came to the other side of the alley 3 guys appeared in front of me and i stopped. They walked over and asked what i was doing. I didn't know i was in trouble until two of them reached and grabbed my arms and dragged me from my bike. the two men who had been following me caught up and joined in repeatedly raping me and sodomizing me. They tied my wrists up with barb wire. they held a knife to my throat. I only escaped when all but one left and the one that was left fell asleep while laying on top of me. I never told anyone this until 2 years ago. I didn't bother telling my family since they didn't believe me about what happened when i was 6.
On my 21st birthday my husband got me really drunk and after drinking all i wanted to do was sleep. Instead he took my clothes off and started inserting himself into me. I kept saying no i don't want to. I managed to push him off a few times but finally i just gave up.
Flashbacks have recently gotten really worse and all i can do to keep it together is talk to my 3 years old daughter about her day. At work I have anxiety attacks often. at night i cant sleep when I do sleep i have night terrors.
I have recently started counseling and I pray that it brings some closer. Is there any advice you can give me with how to cope?
I have done the really stupid things like self harming.
No one believes me accept maybe 3 people and none of those 3 are my family.
Firstly I would like to say that I believe you. Three little words that I know from experience can mean a lot.
If you need to talk I am here. I am pleased that you are starting therapy and I truly hope that that allows you to come to terms with the events of your past
Are you still with your husband? Have you talked to him about how he made you feel on our 21st
As for how to cope, take each minute, or each hour and try to focus your mind on the here and now. Grounding exercises help me, I name 5 things I can physically feel, making sure I differentiate between things I think I can feel and what I can actually feel. Then 5 things I can see, smell and hear.