hi all I have not been on here in months and thought Ild check in. I wasn’t sure if it was good for me being online- I wanted to try move on with my life somehow.. anyone who read any of my posts before I was accuaintance raped last oct. the only other man I been with in six years besides that incident is the father of my kids and love of my life- we still tried to be together and love each other but it’s been soo hard. I have had my gosh I wouldn’t even know how many checks with doctors in this last year. I have been check down there multiple like if not 50plus times:/. I’ve been to two sexual health clinics multiple times, the rape clinic to see that doc, gps, gynaecologists and now a dermatologist to try get any help. I was diagnosed with high risk hpv in Jan- after I’d already been intimate agin with my partner :( so he would have already been exposed. I’m seeing a psych, councillor, doctors and psychiatrist for my mental health and started medication to help with the ptsd and anxiety. My doctor- my new doctor aswell thinks it’s a nerve thing down there that is causing me to feel uncomfortable down there still and all the specialist I see say that high risk hpv and even the wart hpv would not cause ithcing burning and discharge. I can’t stand these symtpoms and esp after this long. I’m so angry still that someone did this to me and it does feel my life is ruined. My body is not mine. I have bumps show up down there which specialts all say are diff things and the most Recent derm said that she thinks they are moles on my vulva and she will check in a few months- why moles? And why now? And why the horrible burning itching feeling? Is this what other people get? Do others actually get these symtpoms from nerves from the trauma? As it’s hard to believe my doctor that its jsut nerves and more a psychological thing? I feel they may not want to tell em they are warts that’s why the child up in a few months- as they know I’m not coping as it is. I have stem like growths on the inside of vagina bear hymen and the flat bumps on outside that all doctors say are normal and don’t look like warts.. I just don’t get it. I diagnosed with hpv and now have these bumps and don’t see how it’s not related? Online it always says on anything that hpv you can have itching burnjng and discharge which is exactly what i have to live with everyday with no explanation from doctor I’m going crazy :(/( so I guess my question is , is it true about the nerve thing and my mind and stress making me itch burn and cause discharge or do you think it would be from the hpv. I don’t know what to do anymore