TRIGGER WARNING 

Talking about my experience

My entire life has been a roller coaster of ups and down. I have never trustedd men in my life only my grandfather. My grandfather is really sick right now and we don't know how long he has  left. He doesn't know what has happened to me but he has always known when I was done and would know how to help me be happy. When I was little (about 3 years old) my other set of grandparents had me for the weekend  and my birthgiver's boyfriend took me and my brother to the park. We played for hours and I had "my baby" I had asked him how to wrap up the baby. He said "I'll show you after we have some fun". He sat me on the green swirly slide while my brother was on the swing. He had undone one side of my white Minnie Mouse overalls and began to put his hand down my overalls. I asked what was he doing and he said "All the little girls do it" and continued till he got what he wanted. After he was done he buttoned my overalls back up and showed me how to swaddle a baby and we left. About a year ago I got ahod of my birthgiver and asked her who had taught me to swaddle a baby and who always wore hightop chuck taylors, ripped jeans, and had long choppy hair and she had told me that it was her ex boyfriend. I have been a total wreck for awhile now thinking a grown man could ever do that to a child.

I have more to share I just need to build the courage to tell more. Thank you for listening to this. <3