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Need to stop drinking

Banffgal
Banffgal
Does any one else end up in a bad place after having too much to drink?

I had a horrible night on Thursday. Drank to much, went to the bar. Ended up in the hospital.

I felt like I was back in Thailand having it happenen all over again for about 3 hours - shaking, crying uncontrobally, I just walked to the hosptial at 4am in a teeshirt, no Id, no nothing.

I just walked my self there....

I know I shouldn't drink but some times it feels good and then 1 turns into 5, 6 7...

I still havn't recovered from that night...I feel like I took 10 giant steps back in my recovery AGAIN.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It is hard, because you are trying to make yourself numb after the first one. I had the same issue and I slowly had to back away from alcohol, or at least the people who I associated with when I drank. You can find yourself in control, you just need to know how to do that.
deleted_user
deleted_user
And some people find they can only stay in control by not drinking. 1 drink is never enough and neither is the next one...and so on. Try looking at AA if you want to give up drinking, if that's not for you then try cutting back how many drinks you do have in one session, the key here is to enjoy the drink not get trashed and vunabale
deleted_user
deleted_user
i think that i can understand pretty well what you're going through, even if at a minor level. i was drunk during what happened to me, and although i always feel the consequences of what happened, it is magnified and multiplied whenever i drink. unfortunately, i drink relatively often, and every time i do i have at least 5 drinks and more often, 10 or more.

i'm not sure if you were drinking when you were attacked as i can't completely discern from your post whether it was the drinking that made you feel like you were back at that time, or the hospital trip that you associated your attack with. either way i can understand the problem with association.

i am so so sorry that you feel like you took steps back in your recovery. i'm not sure if anything i could say would help, but i thought i'd at least tell you that i can understand what you are experiencing, and sometimes that may be able to help in itself.