I've told very few people about this. But when I was 7 years of age my father raped me. My mother doesn't know. And I have dreams of it happening again while I'm an adult. It's hard because sometimes I think it's my fault that it happened. I know that sounds silly to some, but the feeling is still there. You're supposed to look up to your parents as if they are super heroes. They are supposed to teach you what is right and what is wrong. And lead by example. My father was in and out of jail all the time growing up. And when he raped me, I was helpless. I couldn't do anything to stop it. And he didn't care what he was doing or how it would effect me to this day. I have been to therapy, and have been told by my husband that I should file charges on him now that I'm an adult. I have plenty of mixed emotions about that. For one, I fear that nobody would believe me. Two, having to tell my story to a whole bunch of people I don't even know again just to put my father behind bars is a lot of pressure. And I fear I would have a severe panic attack. I struggle with this trauma everyday. The memory constantly pops up and so do the dreams of the event.