You are doing exactly what you’re suppose to do..
just talk.. the more you talk, the better you will do...
we are all victims of different sexual stuff.. guys and gals.. we are here for each other.
The more you talk, the stronger you get.... but... all this depends on you... that’s the really cool thing here.. you share as much, or as little as you want to!!

I would recommend you finding yourself a good trauma therapist..
if you don’t know where to start, google or bing
RAINN NETWORK

They can help point you in the right direction...

Hang in there, your much stronger than you think you are!!

Notalone00

Thank you for replying. I can't leave my house right now it is just too much for me right now so I am working with an online therapy sight but she has worked with people that have gone through this kind of stuff. How do you guys even know what to say? My brain is in 5 million places and no where all at the same time.

Talk about it. This support group helped me years ago with my trauma. I could barely function, but talking about how I feel, and messaging others that have been where I was really helped. Also, after I had healed some, I noticed that helping others by reaching out and talking to them was helping me as well.

A little while later, I went back to school and I ended up embracing the opportunity to get counseling through them. It really helped more than I could've imagined! Talking is a powerful tool and will help you through your journey to healing.

You sound so strong! Right now I can barely breathe and am afraid of everything. My doctor called me today to tell me that I am going to have to have surgery and the idea of being put to sleep has me freaked out. I know being drugged is completely different than anesthesia but still.

I can understand that. I used to be triggered by random stuff, for years. For me, it didn't always have to do with how I was attacked though. Like, I'm not sure the guy was ever drunk, but for some reason, drunk men triggers me (esp strong men). Even now, being around my friend when he's just tipsy makes me uncomfortable (he has a strong presence, muscular, deep voice, really tough).

I wish I could give you advice on how to get through your triggers......maybe breathing and reminding yourself that you are safe, you're at the hospital, and you're just going to sleep might help....or maybe having a trusted friend or family that you can confide in there with you will help...

Also, I think strength is a side effect of the healing process - like, the more you press towards healing, the stronger you become.