Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I hope sharing my story will help me heal. i was date raped. i went on a date with someone who had pursued me for a long time. A friend of a friend. we went to dinner and i knew that I wasn't that in to him and that this would probaly be one date only type of deal. I had a drink at the resturant which made the night bearable. We went back to my house and had a few more drinks.
We smoked pot and I must of had more drinks than I thought because the next thing I knew he was on top of me and we were having sex. It didn't feel right. I was going in and out of conscienceness. By the time he was done I felt like trash and I still do. I have only told two people about that horrible night.
Most of the night is a blank and I can't remember if I was the aggressor or not. The next day this asshole called me and bragged about how drunk I was and that he wasn't drunk at all. He joked how I could barely walk and how I came out of the bathroom with my top off and I was asking for it. After that conversation, I felt very dirty and powerless. I tried to put it behind me and I told myself that it was my fault for getting that drunk. I couldn't put it behind me and I have become so angry at this person. Why didn't he just put me to bed and leave like a gentelman?I wish I could put the pieces together from that night. My only way of coping with this is by drinking. I drink every chance I get because I can still hear his voice telling me that I was asking for it. i want to tell the man I am seeing but I fear that he will try and retaliate. That would make this situation much worse. All of this happened last Summer and it feels like it happened yesterday.
We smoked pot and I must of had more drinks than I thought because the next thing I knew he was on top of me and we were having sex. It didn't feel right. I was going in and out of conscienceness. By the time he was done I felt like trash and I still do. I have only told two people about that horrible night.
Most of the night is a blank and I can't remember if I was the aggressor or not. The next day this asshole called me and bragged about how drunk I was and that he wasn't drunk at all. He joked how I could barely walk and how I came out of the bathroom with my top off and I was asking for it. After that conversation, I felt very dirty and powerless. I tried to put it behind me and I told myself that it was my fault for getting that drunk. I couldn't put it behind me and I have become so angry at this person. Why didn't he just put me to bed and leave like a gentelman?I wish I could put the pieces together from that night. My only way of coping with this is by drinking. I drink every chance I get because I can still hear his voice telling me that I was asking for it. i want to tell the man I am seeing but I fear that he will try and retaliate. That would make this situation much worse. All of this happened last Summer and it feels like it happened yesterday.
but you're doing great. sadly drinking wont help this, but talking to people might. it taken ages to recover, but you will and you'll be a hell of a lot stronger for it. i just want to make this clear IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. the animal clearly couldn't help him self, you need to remember this. it'll help with coping, target all of your anger at him, not yourself, don't ruin yourself for something some else did.
Are you seeing a therapist or a counselor? Or have you tried a raped crisis line?
I have been through some things and am now trying to get help. An extremely helpful thing that I did for myself was to get sober. I have not had pot, alcohol, or even a cigarette for almost four years now. I thought that these substances would help me, but they just made things worse for me. I don't want to tell you what to do, but just want to let you know how it was for me personally. Every night I wanted to die in my sleep and when I woke up alive, the only thing I wanted to do was to get as wasted as possible so that I could not feel the pain. I can face things sober today and it is a better way for me. I wish you the best.