If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I was raped six months ago but I didn't know until two months after it happened. I went to a Halloween party with my best friend and I had too much to drink. So my best friend took me to his place to crash for the night. I remember lying down on his couch and I remember he was kissing me but I was really out of it and I was falling asleep so there was nothing I could do. When I woke up I was in his bed and he was on top of me asleep. I wasn't naked and I didn't have marks or bruises but I felt really gross and sore not like I was hungover but like I was violated. But I couldn't really remember anything so I let it go until a couple months later. I started regaining what must've been repressed memories of what actually happened while I was out of it. When I confronted my best friend about it he denied it and even said I came onto him that night. I knew he was lying so I stopped being friends with him. He was an abusive friend and he stalked me and we had to call the cops and get a restraining order. When I tried to tell my boyfriend everything, he got very angry and was invalidating and said it was my fault he was stalking me and accused me of cheating. I broke up with him. I never told him or anyone else about the rape. I'm so ashamed. I'm ashamed because I stayed friends with this person way longer than I should have. Who would believe me if I said anything? The person I trusted the most broke me. Destroyed me. After the rape and my breakup I started having reckless sex with random people that I meet online. Now I know nobody will believe me because they'll see that I'm sexually active. I'll never feel intimate with anyone again.