Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
This is my 2 year at my current school. When I was at my old college, I was able to tell my friends....I felt I had to. I told people in order to try and get back into school, but for a few years, now, I haven't been able to tell anyone. Even when I got into this school, I couldn't tell them what happened, when I had to tell them why I didn't do well my first year in college. I hear other's stories, and I want to confide in them, but I can't. There has been plenty of opportunities. I'm not dating right now. My ex is almost completely out of my life now (so no more emotional roller coasters). If I do ever fall in love again, I would have to tell who ever he is about it. Every time I think about it, it makes me scared to fall in love. I want a relationship so bad, but I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to tell him about what happened to me, and I'm scared of opening up to anyone again. I don't know when or how I got this way, but I never open up...not really. When things get emotional, I find a way out. I'm a music major, and it's starting to even effect that. I have to be able to feel to perform, but the only thing I can pull off is fear, sarcasm, and a nonchalant attitude. I'm always either smiling or showing no emotion. I haven't even realized that I've lost the ability to feel..........I don't want to be like this.....but I don't know how to change...
Opening up is scary when we've closed ourselves down, but with the right person, it can be so healing
Go slowly, you don't have to say everything at once.
Be gentle with yourself
xxx
Much love
Elizabeth
@ ScaredandScarred It is scary to open up. It's funny, but I feel jealous towards those that can be open, esp after being hurt. I'll try and take it slow, but right now it seems kinda impossible...but I'll still try though.
@mama3babies, I don't have a therapist. I never had the guts to set up appointments, and now, I don't think I can. I think I might have convinced myself that I don't need one, IDK. And I do want to date...I think I'm ready too, but every time I think of getting close to someone, and all the things that come with a relationship, I start to get nervous and push the thought away...but if a guy that I am at least a little attracted tto wants to talk to me, I will try to give him a chance.