Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I woke up angry. I'm not sure what I'd been dreaming about, but I'm still angry.
I wasn't the one who committed the crime, yet I have to be stuck with all these problems because of it. I can't have a real relationship because THEY chose to take something that didn't belong to them. I have a drinking habit because THEY were selfish and twisted. I have severe depression and anxiety that is physically painful because THEY did this. Some days I'm in so much physical pain that I can't get out of bed and work or take care of my kids properly, so they suffer as well. It's bullshit, it isn't fair and I'm angry today.
Where are they now? I know they're not in prison where they belong. Are they outside playing with their kids, drinking a cold beer, maybe cooking on the grill and enjoying the beautiful day?
I can't enjoy the day. It's not alright.
I've seen in the paper that criminals who've stolen goods from Wal-Mart were sentenced to 5 years in prison, but only one of these bastards got 11 months in a county jail for stealing someone's entire well being, for stealing someone's future, for taking a mother away from her kids and replacing her with a zombie. How does this make sense?
I feel like they keep raping me, I feel like they keep winning. People say "so don't give them that power" or "if you move on and forgive them, they won't win anymore". Please, don't. Just...no.
Don't they think if it were that easy I'd have done that years ago?? Do they really believe that if we all just forgive our attackers that, like magic, we'd have no more PTSD, depression, anxiety, fear, flashbacks, nightmares and be able to have a decent and healthy relationship? It doesn't work like that. Not for me, anyway. So, I'm fucking angry.
I wasn't the one who committed the crime, yet I have to be stuck with all these problems because of it. I can't have a real relationship because THEY chose to take something that didn't belong to them. I have a drinking habit because THEY were selfish and twisted. I have severe depression and anxiety that is physically painful because THEY did this. Some days I'm in so much physical pain that I can't get out of bed and work or take care of my kids properly, so they suffer as well. It's bullshit, it isn't fair and I'm angry today.
Where are they now? I know they're not in prison where they belong. Are they outside playing with their kids, drinking a cold beer, maybe cooking on the grill and enjoying the beautiful day?
I can't enjoy the day. It's not alright.
I've seen in the paper that criminals who've stolen goods from Wal-Mart were sentenced to 5 years in prison, but only one of these bastards got 11 months in a county jail for stealing someone's entire well being, for stealing someone's future, for taking a mother away from her kids and replacing her with a zombie. How does this make sense?
I feel like they keep raping me, I feel like they keep winning. People say "so don't give them that power" or "if you move on and forgive them, they won't win anymore". Please, don't. Just...no.
Don't they think if it were that easy I'd have done that years ago?? Do they really believe that if we all just forgive our attackers that, like magic, we'd have no more PTSD, depression, anxiety, fear, flashbacks, nightmares and be able to have a decent and healthy relationship? It doesn't work like that. Not for me, anyway. So, I'm fucking angry.
When you get that mad, and you make those promises to yourself, and you make them more than promises, you make them a fact of life, then you can move on. You will never get over it, it's been 22 years, and I still have times I panic, or have nightmares, or start crying, and yes hate myself. But, it's not long till I get mad again, and force myself out of the crap-hole I'm in and get back to life.
So getting mad is good, we all need to get mad occasionally, it can help us all live a life, instead of just existing. Good luck, if you need to pm me, it might take me a day or two but I will get back to you.