Rape Support Group

If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.

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rising-star 02/02/2016

I've dealt with most aspects of the attack. The only thing that is left is the fact that I am seriously struggling with forgiving myself for not defending myself. The second I sensed his aggression, i froze. I didn't say no, I didn't fight back, I did nothing to stop him as he kept forcing himself into my mouth until I threw up. Then he got on top of me until he was finished. I hate myself for not even so much as trying to push him away. I need to find a way to come into terms with this, but I don't know how...

KAdunn 02/03/2016

I went into shock when it happened to me for months afterwards. I would recommend getting into counseling. I've had 3 and it finally took with emdr therapy. Now I have an investigation case and a detective working on it. There is hope to bounce back.

KAdunn 02/03/2016

oh and it's not your fault. You didn't do anything wrong. The shame belongs on him.

rising-star 02/03/2016

It's been six damn years since it happened. I thought I was over it. Then, yesterday, out of the blue after fifteen months there I get thrown back into it. I've had therapy for it. Booked in yet again this morning. I've fought and I've fought to come out of it better off. At this stage i'm beginning to think it will never change. It's just going to haunt me always.

He won.

tinkerbell88 02/03/2016

It's not your fault at all. Healing comes in stages and unfortunately reliving it does happen. I was raped almost 7 years ago but blocked it out for 4 years and now the past few years I've been dealing, healing and taking back my life. Some days are easy, I feel mighty and strong and like a hero then I have days like today where I question myself and if maybe I wanted it after all... My point is, you aren't alone at all, and this all takes time. Please message me if you want to talk!

fuusheegii 02/03/2016

Healing from such a violent attack doesn't happen quickly, or smoothly, you will get to that stage eventually. What happened was NOT your fault, nor should you blame yourself for "not fighting back." I'm in the same boat as you, I know how you feel.

rising-star 02/04/2016

I actually don't think it's possible to completely get over it. It's possible to learn to live a healthy happy lufe, but once every so often it's going to hit again and again and again. I was deluded to think I was over it just because I didn't have a bad bout of it for well over a year. I just have to be better prepared next time...

rising-star 02/05/2016

I mean, the husband decides to rape you... Talk about mind fuck...

bluedragon41 02/11/2016

...ok...the autonomic nervous system will trigger you to either fight/flight, in which case you get this HUGE adrenaline rush...

OR it will trigger a freeze. If that happens, norepinephrine floods your system and you may not be able to move.

This isn't a conscious choice!

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