To be up front, I was assigned to join a support group by one of my classes, so this is my first time doing anything like this. However, I am hoping to get the most out of this opportunity so, here it is.

A little over a year ago, I was raped on my college campus. It took me a while to realize what had actually happened. I wasn't able to report it by the time I grasped the bigger picture and regret it all the time. I have started seeing a counselor but I dont really feel like its going anywhere.

Now Im just angry. I sometimes see him around campus and I just want to smash his ugly face into the ground and beat his head to a pulp with my bare hands. Im angry that he got away with it, and that it happened at all. Im angry at myself for even buying his bullshit to begin with and for keeping such rotten company. Im angry at the person he has turned me into - bursting into tears at the right triggers, and every time I see him. I feel like the emotions are beyond my control, as is the situation, and I hate that he still seems to dictate how I feel because of what happened.

I just want to move away from it, all of it. I dont want to be angry and hurt and sad and broken all the time. In the back of my head trudging through memories i wish i didnt even have. I just want to let go of everything and move on confidently and surely. But I dont know how, or where to start.