Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I made the choice about two years ago to report what happened to me in 07. Well court is 6 weeks away and I just got called in to have another police interview tomorrow morning. No rape is typical but mine was a 4.5 hours long. When i finally sat down and wrote out everything that happened that night and it's ten pages long. They want that journal now. I don't want to hand it over. I don't want my personal thoughts and emotions about what happened to be made public record. I'm just at a loss. They told me that I would feel better finally if I pursued the case. I don't feel better I want to make this all be over. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to make it bigger than it is. I want it all to go away. Being alone in the dark, self medicating and self harming, the paranoia and everything else was easier than facing this has turned out to be. Positive thoughts and feedback are welcome but please no negative comments because I'm barely holding it together.
This stuff is really not easy, no. But you deserve to be taken seriously. You do.
(( hug))
I've always thought about using the technique of writing what is upsetting you, pouring your heart out, pen to paper, then burning or shredding it. I did that when I was younger (well not with fire obviously), and sometimes it worked, and sometime it didn't.
That's what I did with a few of my journals and it worked a little bit. I don't know, maybe it could work for you. Maybe I'm just crazy and don't make any sense. Hopefully I do.
-Mac