Hi, hope your group grows and becomes a good support group.

I am sorry that things are so overwhelming right now. Sometimes when it gets overwhelming I start writing a list of the issues that are racing through my mind. Then I pick out one at a time to work with. Sometimes it is really hard to write them down, but I put as many as I can down.

I know I can only work on one thing at a time so this helps get the extra out of my brain. Flashbacks are hard. I try a lot of positive self-talk, working through the flashback forcing it to become a non-event, one that is in the past and gone. It takes a lot of practice.

I am here to help support. Wishing everyone peace.-RJ

Thanks RJ, A recent event in my apt triggered the past....but I think what was most upsetting was that I froze....I could not react and I know during stress my reaction time is slower, my brain is not as quick. This involved an employee....I came forward...he was fired. I woke with flashbacks and would start crying, my brains default for being overwhelmed....that has eased up...the hyper vigilance is still there, but not as bad, now it's this bad fatigue/?adrenal fatigue...dizziness. Trying to process and let go...a work in progress and new for me in this brain injury journey.

I am so sorry that happened. I am glad he was fired. I was recently in a pain management program at the hospital for 2 weeks. Part of that was "Biofeedback". There I was given some websites to download some relaxation tapes. The one we all have to download was $1.99. But there are 5 minute,10 minute and 20 minute options. Each one works with breathing and relaxing the muscles. It had help me so much.

I will find the paper and post the website later today. Maybe it will help others as much as it has helped me.

Hugs-RJ

I, too, think I suffer from very severe ptsd. My brother was killed in a car accident in 2004, and my dads heart failed from drugs and alcohol in 2008. I can't describe how GUILTY I feel over everything. I'm constantly apologizing to people, maybe because I got in a huge fight w my dad the day before he passed away and I told him that I hoped he died. I finally saw my doctor yesterday and she prescribed me medication to help with sleep andd my appetite. I do the things a or don't do things that I know will make the anxiety and guilt worse. Which requires me to do slot of reading and research about ptsd. I'm getting ready also to start seeing a therapist, and finally I have my medical marijuana card as well, and this helps with eating and migraines. Best of luck to you, and God bless. <3

By t he way, I'm just NOW getting help for ptsd because this is the first time I'm experiencing all this. Which they say is common with TBI

Thanks RJ...my toolbox needs updating so if those tapes helped you I'm game to try! Hugs

Samantha, those memories are a lot to carry around and process, and my research showed the same as you, that BI and PTSD are often together/and since we are all different our memory banks past/present are different too, but for me it all jumbled together/hard to seperate/it became one big overstimulation. I hope you find a good therapist. Keep sharing here, and let us know how it goes! Hugs

Samantha - it's really hard to feel guilt and sometimes you can't wish it away; even if you know deep down that nothing's your actual fault. I apologise lots too. I could safely say that I could apologise for being on the earth in the first place, it gets that crazy. I hope the therapy goes really well for you and you can untangle some of the stuff. Make sure that your therapist is fully aware of the BI and the implications this has. Best wishes.

I am constantly apologizing. I think it is for being made to feel guilty and hated as a child but don't know. I was teased so badly as a child and it lasted for most of the years I was in school. I am programmed to apologise for very simple mistakes. I play a game of badminton and don't hit the birdie/ I apologise. I do the slightest thing wrong and I am saying "I'm sorry." People are always pointing it out. Telling me to stop apologizing,

Saw my Dr yesterday, been a full on two years with my hubby going through treatments for 3 cancers, and seeing the little children in chemo was hardest for both of us. Then got diag with Ataxia, and that has quite literally taken the ground out from under me. No cure. But noticed getting anxious over silly things of late. like in newsagents and remembered I had left embroidery hoop on desk, not away in place straight away, and couldn't relax till I got home to do. this is just not me. Talked to Dr other day, he explained been through things, and gets to stage where brain says I have had enough. Told me to try and relax, maybe take a holiday. That's not easy with Ataxia. Nearly hit the carpet in his waiting room but hubby and another man stopped that and got me seated. Thankfully. Getting to where going out is not always easy to face. But have to beat this. Use a walker and flat shoes. He never said ptsd. Hubby is a viet vet who suffers that badly.

Thanks for all your replies. I finally saw my doctor, and she prescribed me some medication that's helping and I've started different techniques and therapies. We just gotta keep plunging away!