my brother just called to tell me that my 17 year old neice Brittany is pregnant and now this means i'm going to be a Great Aunt- so one more thing to remind me that i'm getting older and i'm still childless... i have to admit - i'm very bitter over this- especially knowing my oldest brother is gonna be a grandpa and he will never see the kid..... then my step neice just told everyone she might be pregnant to- which is this same brothers step daughter.... so double whammy for the family for the week and she is 16 .... or 17 also.... woo hoo- so these teens are pregnant and i'm gonna be half of 50 this year- thats right- 25 and still no baby for Brandi ! someone shoot me in the head...... shoot me in the head now... Great Aunt B- feel sorry for her- she has no children and never will.... i am happy , scared and jealous of them in some way.... although i want to feel bad for them- i know there are way too many forms of birth control out these days to say they didn't know how to stop it from happening... yes i am bitter that i'm childless- can u tell? everyone around me are having babies and i want to be a mother so bad- i just don't see it happening for me.... i'm a ugly loser who nobody wants to make a baby with and my body won't get pregnant- or ok i'm assumming..... :( very very depressed now- very............................... do u know how it feels to be surrounded by children and yet none of them are ur own- that really blows.... :(
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