hello guys, im mentally going through sooooooooooo much rite now and have no one to talk to. I’m in a inneracial relationship with a fiancé 16 years older then me. I can’t open up to anyone in my family because they all will say I told you so ! He is too dam old for you . Etc. I feel like I’m going crazy we didn’t exCtly plan this pregnancy I have epilepsy and the medication weakend my birthconrol pills. Our plans were to get married I was set to graduate nursing school with my RN this May we were in process of purchasing a home together and then this summer we were gonna start working on a baby. Well suprise I found out I was pregnant in December and due In August. I’ve been a bitch I will admit ! But he is no where near the man I thought he was. He’s 40 I’m 25he has previous children and I thought he would understand pregnancy how it affects the woman’s body etc . This is my first child and I’m so excited about so much .hes less then excited about anything he doesn’t ask about the baby he doesn’t check on me to see how I’m doing I litterally feel like I’m alone in this and yet I go to bed every night with the man I’m getting ready to marry in two months. I think it would be better if I had my mom or sisters to talk to without judgement but since being pregnant I feel like I have grew apart from them.tonight things got bad and I have decided it may just be best to be a single mom and do this alone. I’m gonna be a first time mom idk if I even know what to do. I feel alone as tho I have no one . I’m plannibg my own baby shower my own nursery everything alone. I just want somebody to care to show interest be happy . Idk if it’s just pregnancy or if I’m really starting not to like him I feel crazy crying almost every day . Just looking for a listening ear