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I don't know if this will help anyone else. I can hope it will. I am going to try to focus on all those individual things that trigger me. I hope it gives you some insight into your own minds. In some cases I am going to also put where it comes from.
Confrontation - oh this is a big one, breaking it down
Being yelled at that I am wrong (thanks mom and dad)
Told I am wrong (mom)
Lying - got to break this one down too
Told I am lying (mom) - this is one of my hardest buttons
Being lied to (Army)
Phones
Answering from worry about confrontation (bill collectors and mom)
Hearing something is wrong (I did this, when I called hubby and told him I was in the hospital with a broken back)
Meeting new people - comes back to confrontation issues
Doctors (doctors gave me this fear by almost killing me/letting me die)
Cancer - anything to do with it, the word, commercials, follow ups (cancer did this? But my cancer was two years ago and it has only been a trigger for a few months... need to nip this one in the bud according to hubby)
Concern about physical pain (broken back)
Family - MIL is ok, but mine terrify me (my family did it, thus why I have no contact)
Access Issues (idiots - I have more panic attacks from people trying to tell me my Service Dog is not allowed than any other single reason)
Verbal attacks of my animals (??? why this flips me out I am not sure... it has been a trigger for longer than I have been using a SD, so probably has to do with mom)
Crowds (??? I get overstimulated, but no clear reason. I am fine if I am doing something - like speaking in front of 10,000 people, but a disaster if I am walking through a crowded mall)
Sound of people verbally fighting (mom and dad)
Being alone (I did this - by being actively suicidal in the past)
Falling (broken back)
Horses that are not Shaman (broken back from a horse)
So, this is what I can think of... Surprisingly enough, my time in the Army is the least of the sources of my triggers... I let people I talk to, think it is the other way around. It is easier to let them think that.
I invite anyone who wants to construct their own list to join me - or not if as you see fit. This has helped me a lot.
yadlim
Confrontation - oh this is a big one, breaking it down
Being yelled at that I am wrong (thanks mom and dad)
Told I am wrong (mom)
Lying - got to break this one down too
Told I am lying (mom) - this is one of my hardest buttons
Being lied to (Army)
Phones
Answering from worry about confrontation (bill collectors and mom)
Hearing something is wrong (I did this, when I called hubby and told him I was in the hospital with a broken back)
Meeting new people - comes back to confrontation issues
Doctors (doctors gave me this fear by almost killing me/letting me die)
Cancer - anything to do with it, the word, commercials, follow ups (cancer did this? But my cancer was two years ago and it has only been a trigger for a few months... need to nip this one in the bud according to hubby)
Concern about physical pain (broken back)
Family - MIL is ok, but mine terrify me (my family did it, thus why I have no contact)
Access Issues (idiots - I have more panic attacks from people trying to tell me my Service Dog is not allowed than any other single reason)
Verbal attacks of my animals (??? why this flips me out I am not sure... it has been a trigger for longer than I have been using a SD, so probably has to do with mom)
Crowds (??? I get overstimulated, but no clear reason. I am fine if I am doing something - like speaking in front of 10,000 people, but a disaster if I am walking through a crowded mall)
Sound of people verbally fighting (mom and dad)
Being alone (I did this - by being actively suicidal in the past)
Falling (broken back)
Horses that are not Shaman (broken back from a horse)
So, this is what I can think of... Surprisingly enough, my time in the Army is the least of the sources of my triggers... I let people I talk to, think it is the other way around. It is easier to let them think that.
I invite anyone who wants to construct their own list to join me - or not if as you see fit. This has helped me a lot.
yadlim
Shouting/verbal abuse in my vicinity:
Verbal abuse usually accompanied battering incidents.
Riding in the front passenger seat of a car+being shouted at- will trigger a flashback to abuse incident
Overload-easily accomplished in stores.
Other issues-always waiting for those I love to turn on me and destroy me, I expect it.
I consider it the price of being loved; eventually you will be ripped to shreds and there's nothing you can do about it. If I didn't go more painfully insane without human love I'd avoid humans.