Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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I'm beyond up set right now. So stressed out having bad panic attacks. So Saturday I had an MRI done of my back. I have had back problems since I was young and jumped on the way home from school. It got wires over the years from my weight and chest being bigger. Well its to a point were it's killing me. There have been times where I cant stand straight up or can't stand for more then 10 minutes. Well the nurse called me Monday and said that they saw a few things wrong. That she will talk to me more about it at my doctors appointment on Thursday which is tomorrow. That's just the tip of the ice berg. My step dad who has raised me since I was 4 so he is basically my dad. He has had medical issue for a long while now well they told him that his mild seizures are caused by the clogged artarys in his neck. So he will need surgery soon or he can have a bad stroke. My biological father has cancer through out his body and is not doing good. So all that on top of my depression,anxiety and ptsd. My ex taking my kids doing all that court stuff. So I have been with this guy for 2 years and 4 months with him being in and out of jail. I have supported him in and out putting money in the phones and in his books. After him beatting me bad. I'm not sure what I was thinking. No self esteem so I settle and say he didn't mean to and all that. Well he gets out we are doing good i think for two weeks. We wake up this morning fine all lovey getting ready to take me to work. He stops and says im taking the bus i have stuff to do i said oh ok are u sure he said yes. Gave me a kiss says I love u. I say will i see u tonight he says yes I said ok love u. Wakes away not hearing from him all day. Phone is off the phone I got him. No text nothing. After everything I did and took really. I feel so stupid. Like a Jack ass. He really played me good. I thought he loved me. Well I am done with stuff I even turned to drugs after being clean for 8 months. Lost,pisssed,hurt,angry many more. Going toto cry my self to sleep I'll let u know tomorrow what she said. Please pray. I appreciate all the support. You all are amazing
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I also get very anxious with drs, so I understand.
sending positive vibes and a warm hug! it will be alright.
it will be alright.
I am sorry that things are so difficult for you right now. We get into a habit of letting others use and dispose of us because of our self esteem issues, and we do end up taking care of everybody else before ourselves, so Lucillegem is right. You will take care of you now. You know how to be a good care giver cause you have done it for others. Now pretend you are one of those others. Seriously, stop and call yourself by name in your thoughts instead of me or I. and when you get up every day, ask yourself first off, "what can I do to help tough today?" start with yourself, because the better you are doing the more good you will end up doing for others too. And yes, DS is here with you. Keep getting out those feelings, it's good therapy triple hugs of support~
All I can say from my day's aftermath is be super gentle to yourself after it, like you'd treat your best friend if this happened to them and not you. Getting a little detachment like that helped me get past the shame to the kindness I needed to show myself to begin to get myself back together again. Drugs numb the pain for a bit, but when they wear off it's still there. Showing myself the kindness others neglected to give me was what started me back on the road to wellness again, and wellness without people like that in my life anymore to mess with me.
Much support to you.
I hope your appointment went okay today
Sending you lots of support & gentlest of hugs <3