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walk to the shop with my hood over my head

crybaby
crybaby

I woke up, like I do almost every day of my life, thinking, oh no, another day to get through before I sleep again.


The anger is terrible.......the depression is worse......I don't take any drugs, but I wish I could get some valium...I know it takes the edge of the pain.


I want to get help, but I can't......I have a young child......they will intervene and may take her away.


We are living in an attic room....it is too low to stand up.....we have no kitchen.....some basics in the room......I wash up in our shared bathroom.......THIS IS MY HOUSE.......but I had to rent it all out because I am now too ill too work to pay the mortgage, bills etc etc.


My daughter is not in school......I am meant to be home edding....if either of us had the will......the authorities don't know we are back in the country.


I am only live hour by hour.



arfie
arfie
Yowza!!! Crying and shouting angrily with you, Crybaby.

How old is your daughter? Did she walk with you to the store? Are you in danger of deportation?

Hope healing happens here.
crybaby
crybaby
My daughter doesn't come out much any-more....maybe once a week......we back in my country....I am safer abroad because no-one knows we exist when we are away.....but have no money left.....scared of social services here
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
It sounds like this situation was some time in the making, crybaby, what with having rented out the house, moved back into your country and so forth. If it's not working out, perhaps you can give yourself the same amount of time to make a new situation. If you could do the one, you can do the other, just little by little.

Try not to do it all alone, too, if you can, will you? Social services won't intervene if you have other support already in place. One support could be turning over your daughter's education to the school system for a while to take that task off your plate for a bit, too, right? Then perhaps you can find an affordable counselor to help you through this bout with depression you're experiencing. That may lead to an affordable doctor who can prescribe meds at a rate that's within your reach.

Easy does it, lightening your load gently sounds like the way forward hour by hour now, ok?
arfie
arfie
It is hard to believe anything could be worse than languishing alone in an attic room. Hope you both find your way out.
crybaby
crybaby
Thank you both xx.........arfie......the light as this time of year is only 8am-3pm and its often so cloudy its dark in the day.......so its not great for any of us even if we are well...........mujicaptsd........its the lack of support that is, and has always been the problem........I do have some friends but the real good ones are the ones who are on their knees coping already, they have been stuffed through a mincer as well.......I can't ask them for help.........I only have one child.....they are struggling with many.......but your advice, I know is right.....I have to find a way to break up the problems into manageable chunks and try to start the ball rolling........if I had some-one reasonsible for my beautiful dd I would start now
crybaby
crybaby
pls dont stop holding my hand
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