So I have this uncomfortable delusion that really bothers me, it's happened ever since my trauma really but it used to be really occasional and slight... but the past month or so it's been getting increasingly bad and often. The delusion is feeling like/thinking my partner is the person who abused me.The abuse was only emotional/mental, not physical or sexual, but I was still really scared often of them physically and/or sexually abusing me too. I've realized that certain words, phrases, movements, even the arrangement of words in a sentence can trigger this delusion. My partner is extremely kind and amazing, I've been with them for about two years and I love them so much, it's absolutely heartbreaking to have delusions in which I feel like they're my abuser and I really want to work on healing it. It can get really overwhelming and scary. If it happens in person, it's really confusing because while the delusions are going on, I still fight it enough to tell that they are the person I love and trust and feel safe with... I don't know how to describe it. Does anyone have any advice?
Oh and I am in the process of finding a therapist already, so when I have one I'll definitely work on it with them, but for now I really could use any help/advice i can get. Thanks so much!