Deep breath. You don't have to make any decisions today. Look at one thing at a time and you can work your way through...

hugs

We’re here to listen. It’s okay to take things one step at a time as patti said. Please take care of yourself in the meantime. I hope that your sleep is improving. Gentlest of hugs. You are brave. Day by day.

Sometimes there is a calm hidden deep just waiting to surface. It’s easy to miss it but one little thing at time will bring it back within reach even if it’s just giving yourself a much needed break from having to do anything at all. Warmth and comfort, compassion and hope I send to you.

Do you do any meditating? It's been the one thing that's helped me when I've felt this way. It took me years of weekly meditation with a meditation group I met through my local independent bookstore, but in time it started to settle me down.

The kind I learned is called "lovingkindness" meditation--the kind I needed to be kind to my little baby soul. My group used Jack Kornfield's book on it for guidance; I nearly memorized the thing by the time I got my meditation practice established. Here's a link to a Youtube by him about lovingkindness meditation.

Jack Kornfield – Ep. 31 – Loving Kindness
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Fy8yxaAU0I

Now whenever I'm out and about and have a panic attack coming on, I just say the meditation to myself: "May I be filled with lovingkindness, may I be well, may I be peaceful and at ease, may I be happy. May I have mental happiness, may I have physical happiness, may I have ease of well being."

I do that in time with my breath, and it stops me from escalating to vomiting or, worse, my past symptom of hyperventilating until I passed out and ended up hospitalized. It works for me most times.

Thanks

Mamma, you know I'm here with you. Shower of healing hugs.

Gentle hug and deep breaths

Like others have said, you don't have to make any decisions right now. If you can, find a place or activity that is calming, spend some time doing something you like. Remind yourself it'll pass, you're safe, and think of the things you're grateful for.

Like Muji, I've found meditation and using words while breathing to help. I did that a lot these last couple months before going to a class that's triggered panic attacks and the "I"m bad" mental record I thought I had a better handle on. Breathing and focusing on repeating phrases helped me ride the wave through the panic attack. I know easier said than done sometimes, but I hope you're feeling better! ((Hugs))