I agree. It's what worked for me. Physical escape is what I did to get away from my family in South America to North America at 17, not drug escape. That's how I'm still here at 58 now.

You trust them not to poison you?

Don't let them control you. I agree with patti, they might try to poison you. The fact they've attacked police should force more resources into stopping them. Reach out to the news papers and your congressmen. Have the police contact the FBI or state or federal police for more help. The cult has to be stopped.
I hope you can find some peace and justice. The cult is getting more and more desperate so what you're doing is working. Be extra careful. The police really should put you in witness protection.

This is a good time to remind everyone do not send any personal information if people ask.

One way you can afford to leave is to buy a camper van and just travel til you find a happy place. Don't bother about dragging all your stuff with you. Most of it is replaceable cheaply on the internet. We have Gumtree here but I think it's Craigslist in the US? Best of luck.

I found this
http://www.cultwatch.com/contact.html
Don't take anything they send you. I mentioned this in the other thread; you have physical evidence like scars and police reports to show if someone doesn't believe you.

I can't imagine the police would spend much time intimidated Zoe..... I wouldn't worry about them too much.... They can bring the military in if needed ...... It's a huge club with more resources then any cult......xo

Hi Zoe, I am so sorry about your situation. Is there a way you can contact the army or any of their groups and explain them this situation to get their help? They may be more open-minded than the others. It is just an idea. As SunCloud said they would know what to do in this case. What about contacting the media as Rizen said? There are people here who care about you. Please don't take the heroin and that Fentanyl. This is what your father wants you to do to harm yourself more. Don't let him win.

Took it several times today. Had the best day ever. No flashbacks, no anxiety, no racing thoughts. Just calm. I even walked outside. Relaxed. It's been years and years and years since I felt this way.

Two possibilities:

Everything you say is going on is true, and the police are terrible. In which case taking drugs is putting you in grave danger, and walking outside is even more dangerous. The only answer is to move to where there are good police.

Or... what you think is going on is really a product of your anxiety, flashbacks, etc. In which case, you need to find therapies/ legal meds that meet your needs rather than relying on street drugs that WILL kill you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28rJqj-7pEY

In any case, do fentanyl and you'll be soon enough living on the streets, selling whatever you can, stealing whatever you can, doing whatever you can, just to get another hit. Your father, son, the cult, will be the least of your worries.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbl19waROcA

You need to talk to a psychiatrist about legal medications to help. It must be the hardest thing thing but don't take any of the drugs they send. They're using them to kill you. Don't let them be the ones who control your life. There are other ways to get chemical help.

I hope things start falling into place. Know that the wheels are in motion. Hugs.

Really think about a physical relocation, maybe somewhere you can get better help too.
Healing hugs

I'm tired of running. They are always right behind me. My bio dad admitted that he has had someone following me my entire life. He also admitted to being VERY wealthy and that law enforcement is fairly easily bought off. They are real....I've had dead cats and dogs left for me. Police say it's kids. I've had dead snakes sent to me in the mail. The police take it and trace it back to the post office of origin and that's as far as it goes. The police have taken pictures of my scars and given to their gang units and it ends there. The police are all like wanting to be helpful in the beginning but in the long run it fizzles out. The FBI just isn't that interested. They have bigger fish to fry.....terrorists who kill dozens not just harrass one. Well, this one can't take it anymore. I find a friend then some weird shit happens and then they are gone. I don't want to be one anymore. All I can figure is to join them.

I'm beginning to think that anything is possible in the Bible Belt.

There's a whole different world up here in the North. Where cops aren't bought off, and while there's not always justice and not everything gets prosecuted, we're all basically good people. No cop would write off dead animals as "it's kids". Really? I mean really? Are kids raised with no morals down there? I'm atheist, but none of the Christians that I've known were that straight out evil to be killing animals.

I've known people in law enforcement and EMS my whole life. My son's loving being part of the local fire department (oh and nothing, flat out nothing better for keeping kids away from drugs than seeing pictures of the devastation/ fires that they cause!) Seems like half of the neighborhood (an exaggeration) works for Homeland Security. Believe me, they'd be all over this stuff.

I haven't locked my doors in 10 years. Neighbors help each other. If your car battery goes dead on a winter morning, there's always someone with jumpers in their trunk to get you going in less than 3 minutes.

FBI aren't so worried about terrorists up here (that's homeland securities forte). They've got teams set up to work on the Fentanyl epidemic that's claiming more lives than car accidents now.

"Dead snakes in the mail"...first, my mailman is a former Army reservist, who when to Iraq after 911...he's not put off my a silly snake. I can't say that he knows the whole town by name, but...he'll tell you if something out of the ordinary is going on.

Saving up and moving sounds like the best idea. Move to a building where people must be buzzed in. You're safer around more people. I think the FBI might be interested in the drug part of it. If you take drugs they might poison you but it also makes getting help harder. For now focus on moving and hire a moving company so you won't be alone in the process. The cult can probably find you but you'll be safer and hopefully in an area with better police.

Hi Zoe, I also think it would be better if you stay away from those drugs as much as you can. I know they provide you relief, but they don't let you think clearly for your next moves and it is not healthy either. Love yourself enough to not take them. You are important. You are worthy. There is hope, you have to persist and not let your father and the cult win taking your health away from you. And I think those police officers and doctors are such a bunch of cowards for not doing what they need to do. You are the opposite Zoe. You are a smart corageous person. You need to keep going ahead on your recovery work and I would suggest you to get out of there as soon as you can, if you don't have a better plan. You can have friends in other places, you can rebuild your life. Good luck!