Welcome to the board animbella....... I'm personally not always aware of why things trigger me

You say a specific person... Is this because this person has caused you pain?... Only answer if you're comfortable doing so sweete

Yes you see he was a boyfriend who raped and abused me and i was also abused by my bio family so at first i thought it was normal however i soon realized that it wasnt

It can be really confusing when you have loving feelings for someone who's abusive

There is often a 'honeymoon period' between the times that they're abusive so there can be hope that, that person will change

However that seldom happens sweetie

I'm glad you wrote he "was" a boyfriend as opposed to 'is'

You deserve to be treated with kindness and respect..... Gentle hug

This is a good board.... I'm glad that you've found us......xo

thank you so much <3
LOTS of hugs!!!!!

I don't know what it is specifically because mine probably started at a very young age, but what I think it is is something to do with the situation that brought it on, for instance, when I used to go shopping I used to panic entirely about the food to buy, and I had no idea I did this until I joined Debtors Anonymous to help me sort out my finances (which by the way have improved quite a lot), and every now and then I'm not quite sure why I still have panic attacks but that's more to do with going a bit overactive imagination and it seeming to go out of control and needing to 'get real' fast.
So - basically, food issues (I am also a food addict and dealt it with via Overeaters Anonymous) and money and feeling like my head is seemingly y'know stuff like that.