I used to feel the same way, i have been disabled physically since i was 18 have not worked since 20 i am now 35 and i also disabled mentally now for severe recurrent depression and BPD etc many others. I live in pain 24/7 since i was about 11 years old but bad since 18 and gets worse every year but i found my purpose. My purpose is to help others who have been thru what i have. I have had no depression in 7 1/2 almost 8 months now. I help others who have been thru abuse now that i have done the therapy for it and doing well. I help others with depression and addiction issues. My body doesnt work well. I am on a ton of meds for many health issues but i am happy and content because i found out my purpose is to help others feel better. We each have a reason to be here and it takes time sometime to find out what it is, it took me a long long time! Anytime you need to chat just let me know i will gladly listen :)

You are here because you have more to do. You have more to love and to be loved. You work here in this mortal is not done.

I have asked this same question a couple of years and even not that much long ago. I reached out to my friends and I filled my day with some activity. I spent hours on a suicide chat line. The best is still the US Marine Corps chat line. They will stay with you until you are OK. There is no pushing you off the line like many others.

My current TDoc pointed out how my actions would affect others. How that effect would be a lifetime. And how could I place that burden upon those that I left behind?

So tell us, what are you going to do now? It is not easy, there is a lot of pain to go through. There is no doubt about that.

I hope you are feeling better and many on here would love to hear how you are doing.

Gentle hug..... I'm sorry that you're hurting so badly.... I think Thor's first line is spot on..... xo

You are in my prayers. I think that Thor is entirely right as well in his opening statement. Please know that you have my full support. Know that you are worthy of life simply because you are alive.

Strength, you have suffered so much, but healing has begun. They will likely be able to straighten the legs later, or they may do so on their own. You are still here because there are things for you to do. You may not know what they will be, but it will be revealed to you when the time is right. If you have not read AngelaJo's new post, please do so. Comforting and empowering hugs.

Yes, Strength, I believe what Thor's first line said, too. We're with you.