What you have to do is to be proud and to admire yourself and your daughter and to promise that you will try so hard to make her childhood so beautiful that you won't have time to remember yours.. and also be grateful, there are so many out there who can't have a baby... just think about that...

I'm trying so hard but the memories flooded back the day she was born

I'm so sorry for what you've been through and what you're going through now. When my daughter was born I didn't have flashbacks of abuse, but I got flooded with a lot of sadness and desolation, which I believe was an emotional flashback of my own infancy. I felt that in loving my baby and taking the best care of her I could, I was also in some way loving and healing the baby inside of me, the one feeling all that sorrow.

One thing you can do is grounding techniques. If you google "grounding techniques for PTSD" you will find a lot of web pages and videos on things you can do to remind your mind and your body that you are in the here and now.

Therapy or counseling are also important so you have someone to process and share with.

Congratulations on the birth of this beautiful child. It is a precious gift and a chance to make meaning in your life. I vowed my children wouldn't have the life I did when they were born. It's hard but you can do it. It means their best interests are put first in the moment but you must still take care of you too even if it means waiting til the crisis is over. You are their rock and their safe place. Give them what you should have had and I hope it helps your inner child at the same time. They deserve it and you deserve it. Good luck

Lots of support. Grounding techniques are great. I like to name all the colors in the room until I calm down a bit. Leo suggested in another post listing 3 things that you see, hear and feel ect. around you that is not the trigger. The key is to find something that reminds you that you are not in the traumatic situation.

For now, you don't have to look in the mirror if that is triggering. You can put a cloth over your mirrors for the time being. Take care and I'm sending my best wishes.

you are not alone, we are with you and we care. it is so good you came here to this group, we understand about ptsd, we have it too. that's why we are here, we come here for support and to be supportive of one another.

gentle hugs, Lilly

also, important - YOU are NOT what happened to you - ok, that is very important to remember.

we can say it out loud to ourselves if it is alright where we are. or good things too, we can say, i am a good person. there are good ones on youtube.com they are called affirmations.

i'm not being good at it right now, sorry. they help a lot though : ) for at first, it is good to know that nothing that happened to you was your fault.

HI and Welcome cd.... Congratulations on your lovely daughter... DS is a great site... I'm glad you've found us....xo

Hi and hope you and baby are doing better now...keep posting! Have you seen your obg dr? if your baby is young, your body/mind are still hormone changing back from pregnancy...this can wreak havoc on your emotions. Are there any groups for young mothers where you live...I found isolation to be a really bad enemy when I had my son....too much time in my mind. Hugs!