hi, i am so proud of you for going to the hospital. sorry it wasn't a better experience and that they didn't help you on the way out.

i wonder if your dx would fit what i know as dissociation. i spent so much of my life dissociated that when i wanted to be in NOW, it was the hardest thing to do - still is sometimes. i just leave - gone.

now i have seizures that seem like dissociation - but i still fight dissociation.

i hope you can take credit for having gone to the hospital and done what you went there for, you know? that was a strong thing to do for yourself.

my life changed a lot when i started coming here, i found the person i never knew was here, the personality i didn't know i had : ) it took awhile for her to show up, but it is safe enough here to just be and figure things out, talk to some people you relate to.

sometimes just reading the posts for a bit helps; i did that to get the feel of the place. you don't ever have to share about your trauma(s) unless you want/need to. that's personal choice.

sorry i wrote you an article, i do that sometimes...
my name is Lilly and welcome to here

Welcome chel, reading the posts here, how we are all different, yet share stories of abuse and trauma..well it helped me feel less alone..and while I am sorry for why you, why we are all here, we can help each other. It helped me to vent when I could get the words out, but you do whatever feels safe for you! There is Hope..sending Hope and Support to you!

Welcome Chel!! Believe it or not there is hope beyond a PTSD dianosis. I was diagnosed with PTSD last year and in that time I've gone to 2 therapists and have felt more healed than ever since. Sending you healing ((hugs)) it does get better and you will have good days and bad days.

Thank you for your forum post. That was extremely brave of you to tell everyone about you past experiences and about your hospitalization. I know that must have been extremely hard for you. I went through the same thing when I was hospitalized too, but my doctors and social workers made all of my discharge appointments the next week for me and I had lots and lots of appointments. I also went through psychotherapy three years after my hospitalization which the hospital gave me the name of a person to contact and I did. She then worked with me for about three years to sort everything out and to help me deal with my own trauma and how I could heal. I think that perhaps you could go see your doctor again at the hospital or your primary care doctor and they could see about getting you a therapist or an art therapist. I wish you the best. Marcy CNA

chel, I've been diagnosed with PTSD since 1995, and once a decade I get as tired as you are, too. It's a reality that PTSD wears us down like that. So I'm glad you're here, and glad others are here who know what we're all talking about.

Thankfully, so far in addition to getting tired enough to want to quit for real every decade or so, in between I have had high functioning periods. That doesn't mean normal periods, nor PTSD-free periods. It means that I can function at a high level even with PTSD. I wonder what I would have been like functioning without it, but we'll never know.

I don't know when my next 10 year PTSD crash will come, so that keeps me humble. I keep close to everyone here, wherever they are with their PTSD, because I will be there, too, high and low.

Welcome. You're not alone, not even now in this. Sorry for what brought you here, but glad you're with us.