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Just got back from seeing my PCP. My hand situation is different. I have to wear brace until I see hand Surgeon. My PCP stated with all the X-ray and MRI he can't recommend PT because the situation is not good. He said I may have to do surgery but at this time it is out of his hands because it is not good. I have to wear brace. He wants my neurologist to get involved and do test and then give hand Surgeon. All fingers are point to hand Surgeon. I still have to limit my hand usage and wear brace.
What making me sad is that when I was preteen the mother that raised me for some reason I was clueless. Went after me and she got on top of me pounding me. I used my hands to shield my face because I would have died that day. A neighbor asked her who saw everything ask her why is she pounding me. She got off me and I ran inside scared because my hand was injured. I was scared to tell her or anyone because I would have got bitten again. I am clueless now like then why was she pounding me. I saw death on her and knew that today I would die and that is why I ran. If I didn't protect my face with my hands her blows would have run my face big time. But years later it is putting my hand in unable to use much
My PCP said that injured developed calification inside which split the tendon that connect my bones and keep them together. He said PT will not fix it but will do more damage than good. I am sad because today and my hand remember of me. Not in a good way.
The last test will show how damage the bones to nerves are. I wish I could speak to parents about what abused does and the effects last a lifetime.
sending you gentle comforting hugs.
TRIGGER WARNING
My therapist later explained that this attack and others like it from my father over the years were because he was an untreated bipolar. That might explain why when he saw the 5 year old kid that I was wasn't eating his scrambled eggs, he overreacted. He picked me up by the neck out of my chair with one hand while he scooped up the cold scrambled eggs with the other hand and shoved them down my throat until I gagged on them.
That's why 58 years later when I get anxious and have a panic attack I gag now. I haven't been able to change that, but I did make myself able to eat eggs.
I hope you don't need hand surgery, but if you do let us be your support for it, ok?
I really do not want to do surgey or do the nerves testing YET I worry about the nerves testing than surgery.. Between yestersday doctor visit and memories and today therapy session. I need a long break from everyone