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happynaz 07/30/2015

Hello everyone,

I am coming here today because I meet with my doctor. I'm alarmed because for the last week I have been doing stuff even more out of my character than before. I been super depressed, anxious, and feel like i"m in a fog and cant remember everything and usually I'm pretty on the ball with my memory. My doctors have been prescribing me Risperidone and also invega, I have heard that the invega takes a while to get out of your system but now I'm on risperidone but I stopped it because of it not making me aware and alert like i usually am.

I have always been a good person and I still am but i feel like these drugs are making me worse, making my memory not so good and making me super depressed. The doctors have not addressed the side effects, what do you think I should do? I have seen my primary and my pysch doctor and they are doing nothing but making me worse. My family and friends have been a witness to my behavior changes, and all the doctors want to do is stick me in the hospital when that is not a solution. Just really need some advice on what i should do?

valgal18 07/30/2015

sometimes the hospital is a good idea.....a lot of the time it's a good idea especially when switching meds. and finding ones that will work....if that's what the doctor is suggesting i would go.....as for the resperidone i hope you told your doctor that you stopped it.....i was on it for a few years and i gained over 60 pounds.....side effects on meds. suck but what i learned is that your mental health is more important that side effects.....if your doctors aren't addressing your side effects and you're not feeling good then you might need to find another doctor....i hope this helped...if you wanna talk, please feel free to message me

mujicaptsd 07/30/2015

valgal spoke for me and my experience, too. I lost a little mental sharpness and I gained weight on psych meds, but the benefit was worth whatever side effects I had. I did have one side effect that was harsh once concerning my muscles, and I went into the hospital for that, just as valgal said. I'd follow her suggestions; the things she mentions are what helped me.

happynaz 07/30/2015

the thing though is i cant financially afford to go in the hospital. if I go in the hospital I run the risk of losing everything. this is all a result of what happened to me four years ago. I am going to get a second opinion because I dont feel that they are doing right by me.

bluedragon41 07/30/2015

Okay...I am now on a med that caused a LOT of cognitive fuzzing when I started it.
It works as a mood stabilizer. It gave me the stupids. It only causes me to brain fart on names now.

...give the med a month. you just started it . See if you feel as stoned on it by the end of the month, because a lot of the time?
These initial effects clear.
OK?

spacepony 07/30/2015

Hi Happy, I second bluedragon about waiting a month, and if the side effects haven't improved AND your symptoms haven't eased at all.

valgal makes excellent points about your doctor listening to you.

Please update us on this, ok?

DeliAnnem 07/31/2015

51- feeling like a 16 year ole at 55 actually sounds pretty good to me...

Seriously, risperidone is pretty heavy duty. I thought it was mainly for schizophrenics, but I didn't see that on your little profile.

Why were you put on that, if you don't mind me asking?

bluedragon41 07/31/2015

...@ Deli, Happy: I * did * kind of assume that the doc had already tried the SSRI class medications.
Those are more typical for harm OCD, which is what (happy) posted about earlier.

freedom14G 08/01/2015

sometimes you do what you have to if you are in good communication with those who can help and can wait and see approach sounds reasonalbe just offering you hugs and support you to know what you feel and need ,,

happynaz 08/01/2015

I am sorry to post so much on here I am just worried. I am a good person but i've noticed a change in me since I started going to this new clinic I have gotten worse, I have not gotten better. I just hope my worse nightmare hasnt happened, you hear about people snapping with ptsd but I am a gentle person. these meds they have me on have made me worse. I'm really worried about the other night because I was not in a good place, i hope my life is not over. I'm starting to feel better but I still feel like i'm in a daze, my vision is not good, and i'm having like cold sweats . i've also been sleeping a lot too.

bluedragon41 08/01/2015

...if you attacked someone in a dissociative state, your body would be all banged up. It is not, correct?

...If you hit someone with your car, your car would be all banged up too.
It is a long story? But my brother hit a man who jumped in front of his car. ( The man sued my brother...and the judge actually told the guy he was an idiot in court... Anyway...)
The man wasn't seriously injured, and my brother's windshield was just completely caved in, the guy flattened it.

So if you hit anything, at any speed, there would have been some sort of body damage to the car.
If you tried to hurt anyone, there would be body damage to YOU. Getting in a fight hurts afterward!
...So there's no real evidence that you did anything bad in the period you can't remember, alright?
Absent that evidence, it is your brain cooties telling you that you might have hurt someone, NOT reality.
...I say this as someone who has hallucinations. So I have to reality-check. My brain plays tricks on me.

...Right now, your brain is telling you something that is almost certainly A LIE. People with harm OCD are usually VERY GOOD PEOPLE.

You are a good person. This is why the lie your brain is telling you is so disturbing.

Got it?

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