i was recently told that i have ptsd... i've had a lot of emotional pain for years but never really recognized it as trauma and i'm not sure if i am really able to accept that what i have is ptsd. i was bullied for a lot of my childhood and have been heavily affected by that, but i'm just not sure that that's something that can cause ptsd? i'm only 16 and have really unsupportive parents and no one to really process this with. all i really know is that i have some really awful memories of things that happened to me and i think about them often and blame myself most of the time and i can't remember the last time i wasn't in this constant emotional pain. is this ptsd? i feel crazy for not knowing for sure.
Now that we have been locked in quarantine for a long period, I know I have spent more time cleaning things out, looking in and about the house and in doing so have found some treasures that I though I had lost. One thing I lost was a cat pin with a dangling tail given to me by an Aunt who I lived with for several years during a difficult time in my childhood. My Aunt passed when I was 16, I...