Welcome to the board polar.... I'm glad that you're here.... A number of members have complex trauma that stems from childhood pain.... This is a good group of people..... Big hug......xo

Welcome, Inf. Receiving a PTSD diagnosis without much background for understanding it is what happened to me, too. When I came here, members here pointed me to this free website full of links explaining all sorts of PTSD stuff. It helped.

http://www.pete-walker.com/

Hi Infi. Welcome to the forum.

I find myself wanting to ask who told you you have PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist or was it a small talk dx? Source matters, both for the dx and the follow-up therapy.

Whatever the evers of that what. . . Not knowing for sure is not the craziest part of PTSD in my book. Clear certainties are not readily in PTSD gatherings. It is a crazy disorder. The more I understand of my own PTSD, the less I believe certainty ever will be available. There are no physical proofs available for ^it^.

We can't diagnose you any better than your lunch hour buddies, but we can share our own, strictly personal, just-a-patient experience with PTSD, etc. Hope you will feel free to share your own confusions and ask questions. Welcome aboard.

a psychologist was the one who told me after he gave me some tests to take but i didn't know that he was testing me for ptsd. then a few days later he just dropped into the conversation "and this test determined that you have ptsd..." and just continued talking without giving me any time or resources to process it.

thank you for sharing the website, also

You are not crazy, you have had a series of events, things which suck happen in your life. I hope you get this "you have a choice to identify with a name ptsd... or.... work through...yes it is hard...you can work through many of the events, come to understand how they are effecting your life....This Does Not Mean You Have To Take On The Event as An Identity...'my ptsd'....

For years I carried my 'label' psychotic, manic, depressive, Bi-Polar 1 trauma, ptsd etc around in my head and body...lived in fear. I'm nearly 64, yes I still have the dx of bp1, yes, I still have the memories/crap in my head, but I No Longer accept the label. I am who I am because of my life experiences, I'm grateful for my dx, as I now understand how to move forward, accept, and have a more compassionate understanding and acceptance of others....if you are 14, and seeing a psychologist, your parents do care....take them with a grain of salt...believe it or not...they do want the best for you, especially when they are driving you nuts! Give yourself some time, some really gentle self-care and most of all....Put Away the claws, self-blame will get you into deep dark places....you might ask if your psychologist could help you with DBT skills....dialetical behavioral therapy....http://dbtselfhelp.com/
(((Hugs))) ml

I don't actually see this psychologist though, my school just sent me to him for a few meetings that my parents didn't set up. That's why this is so difficult

I am not sure there is an easy way to process this one, Infi. I am not sure that "Easy" and "PTSD" even belong in the same sentence. "Easier" is the best I hope for on that score. Whichever way it flows in each individual case, PTSD is just plain hard. I find my own easier one symptom at a time and get by with a little help from my friends.

Be patient with the process, Infi. Hope healing happens here. Gentle support while you find what works for you. Know that you are not alone.

hi, my name on here is Lilly. welcome to this group, it is the best group. i get how hard it is to get the diagnosis out of nowhere and when you are sixteen, while all sorts of things are happening in your life - not only things that are traumatic, but teenagers have lots of things that are bigger than big going on, right?

like, how they sent you to this psychologist? but, maybe, this is a good thing - that feels not good. since you have found this injury - not a "something wrong" with YOU, an injury or series of injuries - while you are sixteen, you have a really great head start on getting over it.

it is one of those things though, that is very difficult to appreciate when it happens.

because of your age, it is difficult for you to embrace the thought, that getting good help for the injury(ies) now - is the best plan and to choose to do that plan right away. it is a hard thing to choose for any young person.

if you choose it? the chances of your overcoming complex ptsd are very good. they really are. our brains are still forming until - ??? i am not sure what age but it is in the early twenties, i believe. after that, there is a lot of wiring that is almost permanent and/or very hard to change. it is possible - but so difficult.

p.s. you don't need to tell anyone about your diagnosis. most people have no clue about ptsd. they don't deserve to know about it.

coming here was so smart. we do understand - we get it.

big hugs, Lilly

Sorry to hear this, and welcome to this site. I have had complex PTSD and only in the last 5 years got diagnosed. It is no ones business and only tell if you feel comfortable

Thanks for sharing, definitely don't feel bad about being unsure. I wouldn't settle for any label nor diagnosis until I was sure it was right. With that I would say get a second opinion. But in the mean time there are things that you can do to help with the emotional problems. If you feel up to it can share a little bit more background about your emotional pain?