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lllovelyrecovery 04/27/2014

(This is my attempt to be funny)

For those of us who find ourselves dissociating and missing a lot of memory from the past, life can be really interesting.

Movies I've seen always have a surprise ending.

"Oh no! I have an assignment due tomorrow!" *opens notebook to find the assignment finished* "oh! cool! I worked ahead!"

I have the pleasure of meeting acquaintances again. And again.

I have several little black dresses because I didn't know I had one (or three). I'll always have something to wear on dates!

"What day is it? ITS THE WEEKEND ALREADY?! Sweet! It's like the week didn't happen!"

I thank my past self for doing things for my future self so future me can't forget. But future me forgets that past me did the thing for her and panics until she realizes that past me did that like a week ago. Thanks, past self!

LeoX3 04/27/2014

i have no idea what happened in 1096 or part of 1997 thanks to med issues.... so the mid1990/ to me are a constant source of rediscovery... i have that alvum!I never saw that movie!
tho these days it is more like, Hey the dishes are done, thanks sweetie... to which he says, Uh, you did them. ...

We are pretty amazing when we are not noticing, LOL!

LeoX3 04/27/2014

ipad, that should be 1996. i feel old but not THAT flipping old!

jewells1 04/27/2014

Now that's a bit of past regression therapy Leo. I am glad to see your little funnies... I did the homework thing a couple weeks ago. I was lost on days, so did my work way ahead of time...easy week that was.

DarkGypsyG 04/27/2014

this is sooooooooo Us!!!! just tends to stretch out over time periods of months sometimes LOL!!!!!

lllovelyrecovery 04/27/2014

It sounds odd but I enjoy experiencing life anew again and again. My friends and family have learned to just laugh at me and let me watch the movie for the first time again or to have a conversation with me for the third time or to listen to me tell them things I think are exciting that I forgot I told them. They've also gotten very used to the answer "I don't know"

lllovelyrecovery 04/27/2014

Actually, the coolest part about this is how we can protect ourselves without even knowing it (even if it is just homework anxiety or doing the dishes before we get too stressed about them).

mujicaptsd 04/27/2014

Heh, heh, good stuff. Made me smile.

I carry around an old model Palm Pilot. Remember those? It's for the sole purpose of knowing where I am and what I'm doing from one hour to the next during the work day. Literally.

Early Alzheimer's patients do that, too. In fact, writing here it is another way for me to keep my bearings.

:-)

MillaSofia 04/28/2014

I talk to past self when she gets....agitated. If I don't fill the requirement she needs, she goes young. Oh, the horror of young and what all happaned. Then the new, since I was better, with my eldest brother who creamed me. I always thank my past self for trying to protect me, not matter what she had to do, dissociate being one. I tell her that now I am an adult and I will take care of her. I love her like my own baby or a tiny kitten.

mujicaptsd 04/28/2014

Hey, Milla--I talk to my past self sometimes, too. It started just as a follow up to therapy sessions, when we went back to some place in the past and I finally got a clear picture of myself as a child in those situations. Glad to know someone else does. Since a lot of my PTSD comes from 6 years in a war zone as a kid, after talking about it in therapy I started to got back and root for that boy I was who was so good at getting out of bombings and gunbattles. "You go, boy!" Never gave him enough credit, you know?

Thanks for posting about that.

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