I try not to cry more than a minute or less. I have had death, stress, anxiety that would cause me to cry but I wont let myself. To me crying is admitting something happened and that makes it real. I to have conditioned myself not cry. Cant say its a good thing but it protects me from lifes "events", makes you hard yes but thats okay, its harder for a hard person to get hurt. good luck.

I understand what you are saying. I went most of my life without crying. It didn't matter what happened. Emotional, physical. I never cried. From the time I was about 8 (maybe earlier?) until I was 15 I didn't cry. I lost my grandpa, whom I was very close to, my dad went to Iraq. Never once did I cry. I always wanted to. Finally the night I cried, I came clean about all of the abuse I had gone through. I still didn't cry much. My friends would always joke "if Carmen ever cries the world is about to end" they don't know it but that statement always bothered me. I struggled to comprehend it. When I was 17 I started being abused again. The only time I would cry was in the safety of my car on my way home after he did it to me. I would be begging him over the phone not to do it anymore. Other than that I never cried.

If you can't cry, you need to work on releasing the pent up emotions. It doesn't have to be with tears... but whatever works for you (therapy). Only when you start to heal will the tears come.

*HUGS*

oh my, you sound just like me. ive trained myself never to cry. i have like body armour on. and ya i think the same way about admitting something is true. im trying with my counseler to start talking about things like that i realy dont want to be true. thanks so much. i get very angry about the little betty things and the big things i just ignore or try to. thats what im trying not to do. it is good to know there are others like me. thank you so much for your message.