Hi Jazzy
Welcome to the group
(unless you’re not new & I’m being an airhead because as I started writing this I feel like I’ve seen your name before) anyway -

I’m so sorry what you have been through, I’m glad you reached out so we can give you support.
I come from a really tough childhood into adulthood actually. I very much understand when you say, how could someone comprehend, that what you went through is unbelievable. I can’t even explain the looks of shock of have gotten even from some therapists about my childhood. I want you to know that I believe you and you have my support. You are seen heard & matter.

I hope I made sense, I’m having a tough day myself & sometimes I ramble a little.

Sending support, strength & many prayers
Big hug <3

Thanks for your reply lilmissy7. I appreciate you validating my feelings. I have read many of the posts on this site. I finally found the courage to join. Knowing the reality in joining also means I have faced the truth myself. Thanks and hoping you have better days.

there is not a single one of my therapy tools which works first time, every time. the serenity prayer is one of my more consistently effective therapy tools, but it is no exception to that rule.

i encourage myself to get creative in the mixing, matching and customizations of any and all my therapy tools. healing takes what it takes and every healing journey is unique.

Jazzy, we here can believe you. Myself, I wasn't put out of the house on the front doorstep, but my mentally ill parents did put me out of the house to live in the space above the garage when I was 9 years old. So I get it. So glad you're with us. Sending you warm support for this extra winter chill.

Thanks to all of you. Your words are so helpful and supportive.

Jazzy, Thank you for sharing your truth. I was left in a 3 bedroom house alone every night from the time I was 10 until I moved out at 18. At least I was warm though! It is one of the many things that really messed me up mentally and emotionally. You're not alone in your journey. If others find healing we will too. Hugs and prayers.

Thanks FOH. Hugs and prayers to you as well.

Welcome Jazzy. Winter is hard yes it is. It brings back a lot of unhappy memories. During this time I go in survival mode. Hang in there. You aren't alone

I so deeply support you. If you can, if your life provides you with the option, is there any way for you to get the eff out of there and live somewhere warmer? I only say this because I find that for me, some traumas are so big that I've had to change big parts of my life, like where I live. For me it helps to be far, far away from my parents, so that their access to me is limited. I know it's a huge task but so far it's been worth it.
I hope you feel better.

@rose - Thanks. No words are truer - survival mode.
@Peaches - Thanks. I live in the south our winters are not long. Extended family lives here. My parents are dead. My mom has been dead for half of my life. I've spent years dealing with the traumas that invade my normal life sometimes. When you grow up in abusive relationships you think it is the norm. Grateful for your support.

Welcome to the board Jazzy.... I am so sorry to read what brought you here but glad that you've joined us....... This is a good place to come.... Big hug.... xo

You're not alone Jazzy. My 1st step-dad, who was very abusive, put me in an out door cellar for 22 days in the middle of winter as punishment. I do believe what you say and I do comprehend it. Just know you're not alone...
Sending you gentle hugs, prayers, and support :)

@suncloud - thanks
@emc2 - appreciate your support

Jazzylady, yes I believe every word you say. Some people will not believe or understand anything you are saying unless they had the same experience. Things like that do happen. I had a friend who had a terrible childhood. She had said that when she tell others what happened to her, some people did not think her story was true because they did not believe the person had gone through such abuse. Especially if that person was made to sit out in the cold like you. My mother had a terribly abusive childhood. One of the things she had experienced was being made to stand out on the porch when it was cold outside; while she was outside, her sister and brother thought it was funny and the grandmother was a mean person. I am glad I never met her and I often tell my mother that if her grandmother was in this day and time, she probably would not get away with a lot of things she done to kids, dominate others and the list goes on.

I will always be here to support you when you want to talk, let it out. Some people especially a few in my family do not believe in Post-traumatic stress, they think it is a cop-out, but not me.

Thank you Winter for your kind words.