Just hitting midnight and even after a klonopin hours ago still too anxious to sleep i've tried! I hate this i haven't had any PTSD in a long time! My brother has me so shook up! Do not know what to expect and hes in town thru Monday! I need sleep!

It's morning now. I hope that you were able to get some sleep last night.

Not a lot but some

Im hoping now ur brother isnt near by ur able to relax a little more.hugs

AngelaJo, sounds like you were not having a FB, but back in the real trauma situation. When that occurred, your whole self went into hyperdrive. I am glad that your mother took a definitive protective action. I also have experienced the aftershocks after the earthquake. Use your tools. You are safe. Calming and comforting hugs.

I'm sorry this happened to you. It is amazing how two siblings can turn out so differently when parented by the same parents. Gentle hug. You're safe now. This will pass. It may suck right now but it will.

He left town last night. So safe now but dont feel it. He triggered me so bad. We were around abuse till i was 10 and him 13 but thats no excuse. My mom and adopted dad were NOT abusive and they had us majority of the time. Having flashbacks since this happened. I hate this.........

My brother abused me too as a child and I still fear him... I hope you are feeling safe now.

Big hug for you AngelaJo….. That's miserable ……

Could you tell your parents that you love them and want to see them but not at the same time that your brother is there... Just go on different days.... Even for holidays and birthdays you could celebrate on different days??…. Would that work?

I can't go back to my parents' house, AngelaJo, especially when my sister's there. She's been hostile from birth. She never had any good friends. As a teen she lived locked up in her bedroom talking out loud to a cassette recording machine. I did what my parents asked me to do for her to get her out to meet friends, but she would lash out over it.

In therapy I learned her antisocial behavior was due to untreated mental illness that led her to become hooked on abusing prescription drugs, mixing them, taking them in any old dosage, all kinds of things. It left her on edge all the time, always paranoid, never relaxed, always coiled up to strike and lash out with the meanest comment or jab she could take in the worst moment.

I learned only a mental health professional can take that kind of mental patient's behavior, and then in only small doses at a time and under supported, controlled circumstances. No way I could, then, and no way I had to. I'm with SunCloud for your asserting your right to tell your parents it'd be best for you to visit when he's not there and you're safer.

THank you everyone, he is no longer allowed there at my parents house. So thats a really good thing! town we live in is half way between where he lives and his son lives so every 2 weeks he goes thru but i just need to reassure myself im safe. I never answer my door unless i trust the person i have a peek hole in my door. He knows where i live but not which apartment. Thanks to the online crap that gives peoples addresses, dont they realize people hide from some? i dont want my rapist to know where i am either! My mail man had put my name on my mail box but noone elses i took it off yesterday and put it on the inside. Noone needs to see that easy what apt i am in and if he puts it back again i will talk to him!

That is a really good thing, AngelaJo. I'm relieved myself, so I can imagine how much more relieved you must be.