My analytical nature has me forever questioning EVERYTHING in my eternal quest to understand everything which hits my radar. I can get so lost in my quest to understand one thing that I totally overlook the path beneath my feet to end up tripping over obstacles in the path and/or running into walls or posts in front of my nose. I have built a hefty awareness of this psycho tick, but here in global chaos of Corona Times, it seems to be ticking with renewed vigor. The last time I failed to keep up with news in far off lands, the global powers pulled the world out from under me. 18 months later, that threat still lingers.
Today's meditation read from "Meditations for People Who Worry" was a timely reminder for me. It seems worth the added reinforcement of typing it out here.
If you understand, things are just as they are; if you do not understand, things are just as they are. ~Zen Proverb
How much emphasis we have put on "understanding"! We have felt confused and bewildered and we have believed that if we could just understand what is going on that we would be okay. We have sought and clutched on to interpretations and reasons, feeling if we just knew what was really going on or why someone behaved as they do we would be all right. Yet, when we found an explanation or interpretation or ourselves or another, the interpretation, in the long run, reallyy didn't make much of a difference in the way we felt.
Indeed, if we look carefully at what we are doing, we just might see the "understanding" actually resulted in our leaving ourselves and what we were feeling. This understanding helped us abandon ourselves. Remeber being hurt or angry and then thinking our feelings were "unjustified" when we "understood"? Our feelings just are. They will lead us to where we need to be.
Nobody ever healed by understanding.
Open discussion. Thoughts welcome.
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