The latest stirs of the covidic stew have me feeling especially mistrusting and rebellious these days. Does it matter which side I am on? Some days I fear I have regressed to my pre-therapy levels of rebellious mistrust. Whichever way I stir the pot, I seem to hit covidic bones and blood. They are far from a palatable blend with the yaddahs of my PTSD blahs.

One of my early therapy breakthroughs came from a "Secret Samaritan Club" within a live support group I was active in It might even be the first of the support groups where I achieved enough stability to feel like I belonged. This "club" was based in this read from the daily meditation reader, "Courage to Change." I found it a timely reminder and thought I'd reinforce the reminder by sharing here.

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"Just for today. . . I will do somebody a good turn and not get found out; if anybody knows of it, it will not count." What a terrific exercise! It helps me to break free of the habit of doing kind or generous things in order to get something back. Only when I perform a loving act with no expectatins will I reap the true reward of giving.

I am learning that giving doesn't have to take away from me or anyone else --if there are no strings attached, everyone stands to benefit. Every good and loving gesture soothes my soul and contributes to a healthier world. These anonymous, positive actions are the building blocks of a flourishing spiritual well-being. My self-esteem grows because I can feel good about my actions. I am engaged in worthwhile pursuits.

Today's Reminder

Today I will put unconditional love into action. When I give freely, without expecting anything in return, I always receive more than I give.

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Just for today. . . I think I'll do something nice for someone on the other side of the masked divide.