Wow!!! Go you!!! Even more so because you braved that feeling that you never fit in. I hope you will keep on nudging yourself until you do find your way to feel at ease out in the big, bad world.

We are all broken in one spot or another. The wait for perfect people to love will guarantee you a life without love. When I find myself feeling entirely too broken for human companionship, I remind myself to let other people decide for themselves what flavor of brokenness they are okay with. They might even be okay with a child sex trafficking survivor, like me. Girl, howdy, I got me some broken parts, but there are even good people who are nice to the likes of me..

You've lost enough time, already, Rizen. Hope you can embrace the future.

Being a carer is a pretty awsome thing. Just saying...

Just remember that everyone at that meetup was looking for someone. Their degrees hadn't gotten them what they were looking for yet...

Rizen... lacking words right now, just want to say I hear you and I care. Hugs

Good for you Rizen…… I was a caregiver for several years as well and it's the hardest job by far that I've ever had

Many people couldn't do it nor would they even try.... Big hug.....xo

Sorry life has been a difficult road but it does sound like you have gotten a foundation for yourself. Your life isn't finished yet it sounds like you have more to your story to go. Hang in there

Thanks for the support. Being a care giver is important too. I have feelings of dread at night but haven't been able to get my meds adjusted or a therapy appointment. The mental health center says they need a release form, even though I gave them one 2 months ago. I have a lot of anxiety and panic attacks.

I really hope that mental health center starts doing their job. It's so hard to have to fight for your right to get proper treatment when you have anxiety and panic attacks.
Support, Rizen...

The secret to being with people, is focus on them and not yourself. Ask lots of questions as people like to talk about themselves. Then they leave and think what a nice person you are. I try to focus on kindness even when I feel super crappy,...no one wants to hear my horrific childhood and I don't blame them, it is private and I share it with my therapist. Doing the same thing over and over produces the same results, you can do this Ritzen as you are a kind person with so mcuh to share